I'll accept with poise with grace when they draw my name from the lottery.

The district sleeps alone tonight
after the bars turn out their lights
And send the autos swerving into
the loneliest evening
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
-The Postal Service, The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

07.01.09 | 04:13:18 | kill time

I really don't feel like writing much today. I don't know. You can't ask me why. There is nothing to tell. Really. Probably, cuz I woke up at the wrong side of the bed? And my hair's all frizzled and dry and flying away in all directions! Plus, the guilty nagging feeling of me being not enough to my friends, my family, my colleagues, and my boyfriend. :'( Hmmm.. How can I possibly make this life MORE worth living? I'm not really complaining. I'm happy the way I am despite the fact that these days I'm mostly always out of cash. No more shopping for dresses and shoes now all of the time when I terribly need a new one! I can't even go out and eat ice cream or buy chips at any time. OH! HOW I CANNOT WAIT FOR AUGUST TO COME! Why? 1) It's Gossip Girl Season 3; 2) I'd probably be loosening my payables; 3) It's my mum's birthday on the 6th! I could hardly wait, not really excited. Nah.

I miss hanging out with my girls and staying up late and drinking (and getting drunk? err... probably, not yet?), I would really want to try that Gilbey's beer with green tea. ;p My boyfriend told me he hopes I get back to who I used to be before: INDEPENDENT. I wonder what he really meant by that. I'm not sure. It boggles my mind until now and saddens me a little bit. I wonder what made him say that, too. I can't see how I become dependent of him so suddenly - if he really meant of him. Oh well... *breathes* I guess it's time for another introspection? No. Not like those crazy days. Uh-uh! Never again - I SWEAR!

So, I'll leave you with this picture right here with a description of the "LOVER". Could that be a perfect description? Yes? How about someone who's happy to see their other one happy? Uh... too cheesy, I should say.





someone motivate me,
-tSin