"I've Got to Get You Home... You Haven't Been Home For Awhile."

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in, cuz I've always wanted this!
~Paramore, Looking Up

10.28.09 | 12:59:13 | your name

OH! I don't know where to start, really. I just have too much in my mind. I am excited and happy and anxious because a lot has been going on in my life for days now -- both good and bad. And I'm not sure if it's ever going to stop... I don't even know if I want it to stop. Sometimes the thrill that I often get myself into just keeps me alive, making my life more meaningful and worth living for and no I'm definitely not talking about scoring infidelities or whatever you want to think that could be worse than that. I'm still as good as I am, I swear. I'm almost sure dear old Santa will really let me get what I want this Christmas.

There you go... just a really cute little update. Some note to let you know that I am still alive. ;) Later on I would be posting some more and some photos, too! I am quite excited! As for now... I will have to go because I feel like I am not making any sense at all. Til later then everyone! :-*


off to lalaland,

-tSin

--BREAK--

yes.

another quick post.

another apology for days with empty entries... i really am sorry!

it's been a crazy hectic week.

stressful in fact, but i'd rather not think it is!

cuz it's just going to stress me more for sure... might probably depress me, too.

anyway, i'm hoping that i wouldn't be too busy at all by next week

and i hope that i would be able to getaway... even just for a while.

there are plans for an out-of-town event this weekend...

and another one on tuesday.

we will see.

hmmm... tiresome days really suck, don't they?

right now...

i wanna

wanna, wanna, wanna

WANT TO seriously

have my own house or at least my own room

where i can cry my heart out without worrying

that somebody might see my pathetic shedding of tears.

i'm just tired of holding back... anything.

i want to break free.

i want to be able to express whatever i feel at the right moment to the right person

without fear...

*sighs*

i hate tiring days.

i hate feeling tired.

uh... i wanna zZzleeep.

the only exception,

-tSin

Go Home.

my eyes

burn with unshed tears

my body is weak

from so many silent years

~Ben Harper, More Than Sorry

10.18.09 | 09:40:08 | crying over happy days

Sometimes, I don't know if I'm too good or too bad.

I just know that most of the time I can get too inconsiderate and unreasonable...

Oftentimes, I am passive.

Probably because I hate dramas for sure and the fact that stating my opinion or saying anything at all could only lead into something else... something more unpleasant and stressing.

I just want to live the good life.

Less drama.

Less arguments.

Less worries.

More on appreciating the things that I have in life... yes, even the little things.

So I'd rather lose my things than sever relationships with my friends.

I'd rather live alone than hurt people and have eternal enemies.

I would never want to die holding a grudge on anyone or hating anyone at all.

Sure, I do get pissed now and then by rude, know-it-all people who acts as though they own the world and that they are the only person in the planet...

But that's it.

I usually just forget about those kinds of people or shitty things that happen.

A good sleep and ice cream and a couple hours of silence is good enough to make me feel better.

I guess I've put into mind that in this life we really couldn't get away with the shittiness...

Life is never fair so we might as well deal with it.

Oh how I wish that I could just runaway from this all and live alone somewhere peaceful.

But I think that would be too selfish, huh?

Ugh. It's just that sometimes I think that these people whom I love and who loves me are better off without me.

I know that's such a crazy belief or thought or what not, I just couldn't help feeling that way. :(

I have my own flaws and I've got some issues with myself that I have to resolve.

Otherwise... I will never be able to move on.

Like never.

I will forever think that I am no good.

*sighs*

This should be all for now.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt."

step into the morning and disappear,

-tSin

PARA-PA-PARA-PA-PARA!

BREATHER.
cuz i terribly need one.
it is such a busy busy buuuussssyyyy week!
and i'm not the one to complain :(

now i have to get back to my work
and get everything done
before the end of the day.
i'm now getting dizzy.

-tSin

Because Tomorrow...

I might not want to write or worst think about this anymore... So please accept my apologies for this second entry - I swear this isn't gobbledygook, no way.

Yessss! It is Gossip Girl Tuesday everyone! And since it's "Happy Columbus" day in the U.S we're not very, very busy today! Excellent! Moving on, I am now wide eyed and überly excited just thinking about GGX and the next epi: RUFUS GETTING MARRIED. And while I await for my own copy or to get it from somewhere else during the week... I am going to post some GGX goodies here! Firstly, I found these young photos of Penn Badgley. Here, let me give you a sneak peak:

~Oh those lips and those eyes... they often remind me of The Boyfriend. ♥__♥


~He looks a bit of gay right there...
And who would've thought he'd turn out
into a SUPER HOTTY?!

~ahh... those eyes!
I just couldn't, couldn't get enough of them
AT ALL!

I swear, even up to now... he's still my one and only silver screen love! Forget about Edward Norton. I'm just so gaga over Penn Badgley! View other photos of him here. :)

BUT I definitely hate this part of GGX Season 3:



I really have nothing against Hilary Duff... I looove Lizzie McGuire. But for her to co-star in GGX and taking my man, Dan Humphrey or Penn Badgley, away from me?! That's more than I can handle. Ugh. Please Dan... get back with Serena. That's better really!

Sheesh. Hilary just go back to wherever you were from. Ok. More of Penn:





This sooo reminds me of Penn's "the-other-Tucker" days. The curlzzz! They're just lovely! And he's just beauuutttiiiffful! I think if I go on blabbering and posting pictures of him... this blog would become infinite! Hahah! So let me post some other photos of some other casts ;)

~Dorota looks exquisitely gorgeous right there,
doesn't she? I'm a big fan of her, too!
Sometimes I wish I have a loving and loyal and pretty
nanny like her! :D

~Serena always, always stands out =)
she will always be my ultimate GGX girl crush.

~my second girl crush ;)
and sometimes, I surely can relate to her.
haha!

~Blair and Chuck really good together - no doubt.
and he looks really hot here, no? :)

~Nate standing beside this car makes him
totally irrelevant! hahahah! am I too rude there?
well, Nate is really cute and handsome and all!
BUT something's just sooo wrong with him.
can somebody tell me what it is exactly?
I WANT THAT CAR --- LIKE SUPER WANT!!!
never mind Nate Archibald! hihi.

and then my favorite photos of the group are as follows:

Ahhh... how I would love to be part of this scene!
The dresses, the shoes, Upper East Side, New York per se!
Ugh. I want to be part of that... world!

So... are you excited to watch GGX, too? OH btw, I've downloaded some songs from the third season. Listen to it! Go! I especially love Lissy Trullie's Ready for the Floor! I la-la-love GGX! Well, second (or not really) to Dexter ;)

x♥xo,

-tSin

The Facts and The Figures They Overwhelm a Stifle

Everything that you thought you knew
So tiny that they blow away like dust
~Just Jack, Embers

10.13.09 | 03:18:46 | we are all embers

Aside from the burning and tormenting pain of toothache and heartbreak... I hate the feeling of being utterly helpless and not being given help when I badly need it. It makes me want to throw a feat to that arrogant somebody who thinks he/she knows everything but wouldn't really want to share everything or at least a bit of what they know just because they are downright and preposterously arrogant and discourteous... even RUDE, actually. Ugh. I can feel the smokes coming out of my nostrils and ears right now. Ugh. My make-up! Heavens! I don't want to elaborate on this subject further because I don't want to cause any commotion in any way. I am, after all, a peace-loving citizen of the world. Yes, that's why sometimes I would rather keep things to myself or blog about them somewhere else than blurt them out into the open and hurt somebody's feelings. Although I easily lose my temper I always see to it that the damages should always be controlled, forgivable, and forgettable... in that way it would be easier for me to face the world again, unscathed even. PLUS! They said the world's gonna end pretty soon so I guess I better stick on the being-good side of myself.

And I say too much about that... once more: I'd rather not elaborate and forget about it. Sh*t do happen all the time and this is just prolly one of those times, unfortunately. Ho-hum. It was Ainie's birthday yesterday (technically, it ended some three hours or so ago - the birthd) and all of us had a blast with all the scrumptious home-cooked meal everybody brought to celebrate her 25th day. I think I helped myself with too much of that sago with a mixture of some fruit cocktails beverage that Ainie brought herself... I am now too dizzy and my tummy is stirred up it's hard to think straight and make sense. Well, I couldn't help it... the taste of it is just too heavenly to say no to! And I am such a sucker for beverages like those - I'd feel deprived and violated if I wouldn't take even a taste of it!

~blame this! this is the culprit!haha!
one of the yummiest criminial in the world =)

~this is Ainie, the birthday girl
she said they'd (as in with the family) already celebrated her birthday in advance on a fishing trip (sooo coool!)
all she did on her birthday was relax and spend it in the parlor! she even had her hair curled!
the curls look good on her, right? :)

That reminds me! December please come already! And my beautiful hair, please oh pretty please cooperate and grooowwww! Cuz come December 31st you should already be bouncing and curly! =) I really couldn't wait at all!

'Nuff about me. I wish the birthday girl, Ainz, good health and a longer life to enjoy life itself and love. For her to be able to share her life with her beautiful husband and kids. I wish you all the best! With your determination, I wouldn't think this as impossible... in time you will have everything that you've ever dreamed of, Ainz! =) I know my wishes are simple but they are heartily felt and wished, fyi.

And the following are our presents for the birthday girl:

~she is very amazed and delighted with these Naruto cupcakes
I haven't eaten my Naruto cupcake just yet
cuz I don't want to destroy the cuteness of it!

~a looklet of herself which Mae Ann edited to make it look like Ainie! :)
and Mae Ann didn't fail to do so. btw, I especially love the frame!

~the balloon that we've recycled
funny thing is it was Ainie who picked this up and gave it
to Juno from outside the doorstep of our part of the building.
and now we're giving it to her as part of the birthday presents!
hihi.

I'll be posting the link to more of the photos later on. Photobucket seems to be kaput as of the moment. :( To sum it up, we had a blast and I'm still full from everything that I have taken in (some, I think I haven't even chewed at all! Kidding!). My nose is acting up as well... I wonder what it's allergic to this time! Grh. Good thing I still have medicines stocked at home for this malady.

the birthday party,

-tSin

P.S.

Food prepared by Julie, Ainie, and cupcakes ordered by Juno and Lois. =)
Photo credits to: Juno and Mae Ann

Vote for Me! =)

for the LUDIC FUR CONTEST!!! =)

It's like a spur-of-the-moment-me-deciding-that-I-should-join-this-contest. For short: NOTHING REALLY SERIOUS =) This is a contest that one of my current addictions is holding and I was actually influenced by my friend Teenee to join and make my own entry. So here I am and here's my entry:

this model is just so so so lovely! i ♥ her! :)

isn't that fur stuff cool? :D

and the boots are especially BEE-YOO-TIII-FUUULLL!

i love the pink tights, too!

Please vote for me! All you need to do is go to this site and view my entry and just click on the ♥ icon to like my entry. And voila! You're on your way to helping me in winning the ludic fur =) The entry which has the most number of likes wins the prize. You can vote for an entry for only once a day and I'm still four days before the final verdict... We still have time! We can do this! Thanksss so much in advance to everyone who's gonna vote for me! Muah!

i am, i am too fabulous,

-tSin

Thou Shall Not Steal.

OTHERWISE YOU WILL LIVE A VERY MISERABLE LIFE!

Yes, BEWARE of this seller: imdlatest.multiply.com

read the testimonies of the scammed ones HERE.

I don't know if they are still in business as of date, but if they still are and you happen to stumble upon this blog of mine please do tell everyone you know how fake this seller is. Go ahead spread some love and concern. Thanks!

Nobody wants to be scammed. Nobody wants to be deceived.

give not take,

-tSin

I Am Now a Happy Little Kitten =)

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
~The Beatles, Here Comes the Sun

10.09.09 | 00:20:39 | get a can opener

Hello there dearies... Good news! I'm alive. Yezzz! This is an update regarding the previous blog about my leg hurting and all. Guess what? I'm now a certified drug addict. Haha! Kidding really. Well... it's just that I've been taking in a lot of medications lately due to different illnesses: stomach ache, colds and cough, and then the left leg pain craze. Hmmm... I guess I shouldn't be complaining cuz all is well with me now. Thanks to the very helpful doctors and the medications. I'm now a happy little kitten :) I feel like doing this cuz I'm sooo happy the left leg pain is nothing really serious just some muscle spasm or something...

YAY!!! =)

Tomorrow or later today rather I'd be watching Gossip Girl epi 4 and I couldn't wait and if I won't be too sleepy I'd probably start watching Dexter season 4 as well! :) Weee! At least I've got something to look forward to! And look at this:

Serena is undeniably cute right there and Nate looks so gay, no offense.

And that should be all for now. I've got to go and make a living before anything else ;)

i'm not a teaser,

-tSin


P.S
Thanks to all of those who prayed for me. *kisses*

P.S2
I've added a pingbox to my site so you can now leave me a message anytime ;) DO LEAVE ME A MESSAGE, ok? =)

Decadence.

She keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die?"
Well it's hurting so much more to stay alive now
Shes gonna find out how much it hurts to die
~From Autumn to Ashes, Chloroform Perfume
10.08.09 | 04:15:55 | back breaking

For days I have been crying myself to sleep because I am badly injured - literally. My left leg hurts so much it makes me think sometimes that I won't be able to walk at all the next minute I'd stand up. I've taken all sorts of pain reliever already just so I can escape the pain for a while and have even stopped taking the meds for my other illnesses (thinking that those might have also caused my leg to hurt). Even my granny's mostly and usually helpful cute little massage wouldn't help me go to sleep at all! Ugh. I am such a sickly person! It's crazy and embarrassing that I have to be at the company clinic every week. If only I can skip that part of my sickly life... I would. But how will I get better if I don't see the doctor, right? It's just a good thing though that we have very good health benefits in the company... otherwise, my illness would just deteriorate rapidly with the prices of all the medication that the doctor would prescribe me!

I will have to rest for today or in the next few hours and then I will have to say hello to the doctor once again! I'm crossing my fingers that it's nothing very serious. Hopefully, something that can be cured with some minty vapor rub. And if you're wondering why I have photos of kittens here... in my moments of pain... they are some sort of consolation with feel-good music, too! Help me pray for my health!

i will be better,

-tSin

I'm Just Not A Regular Thing

Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be
~Stars, Heart

10.04.09 | 05:19:46 | incurable romantics

Why do I need to feel pain or sadness to write anything at all? I guess that's just how it's got to be with me huh? I think I am very uninspired lately. Look, I messed up with this other blog, it's not right at all! :(

I've got to get my act together... you've probably read that in most of my blogs for the gazzillionth time it's already boring. But really and seriously, I've got to. And I think I should buy a new pen later so I could write on my journal again! I can't believe how true my G-tech madness really is. Since I've lost it, I just haven't written in my journal in ages at all! And I think I should focus on the "food-cutting" cuz I am sooo fat and I weigh 54kgs already! Nooooooo! I should panic now, right? Hmmm... Let me not be too hard on myself... I'll do food-cutting and crunches again otherwise I will just bloat on forever!

The list of I-should's could go on and on and on. I've got to realize them. I've just got to. Hmpft. Too much about that... I don't wanna rant anymore about myself or about my condemned fatness. It's October I've got to shape up!

Ugh. I sound so lame today... I will have to blog again later when I'm sober and not at all groggy. Nope. I didn't spend my Saturday night drinking! But I am definitely drunk with Stars. Their music is just sooo wicked and amazing! I love them cuz they make me feel INFINITE, prolly that's why they named their band Stars. Hmmm... Listen to them, too! =) Yes you should! And I swear you won't regret!

don't be afraid to sing,

-tSin

P.S.

Katy Perry's concert has been moved to November 14!

It's Some More Days Before Christmas

But before that it's...


=)

-tSin