@konquerology and @jenniper1386 --- love you girls! nice to have met you, too! kisses! :)

I Am Telling You Now What I Forgot to Tell You The Last Time

Look at me

I've got bangs! =)

Yes! And that's what I forgot to tell you guys the last time I posted something here! So there posting another highlight of mine for this year on Christmas day! How do you like my hair now? Haha!Oh before I totally lose myself with narcissistic indulgence... let me say once again a Happy Christmas to everyone!

Btw, I just finished watching Sex and the City and I must say that it is now one of my favoritest movie ever! =) And partly cuz of that movie I was inspired to write The Boyfriend a love-letter-turned-out-getting-off-some-heavy-weight-thoughts-off-my-chest! I hope he wouldn't mind!

finding some party,

-tSin

it's Christmas all over the world tonight. Merry Christmas magagandang people! Muah!

Through the Christmas Trees in the Holidays

I will heal the ruins left inside you
cuz I'm stIll here breathing now...
~Low Shoulder, Through the Trees

12.22.09 | 07:55:55 | the only way I can survive

Hello everyone... I've had too many attempts to create a post. All I can say right now is... I'm sorry I've been MIA. It's been a really busy and hectic and what not December! And though I'm sort of broke now (as if that's anything new at all!) it doesn't matter cuz I've bought presents for everyone and I'm happy and that is all that matters! I can't wait to see my loved ones' faces light up when I hand them their cute little presents! I especially enjoyed wrapping the said presents! Here's a sampler:

It's a pink-themed Holiday for me! :) I'm not gonna blab a lot today cuz seriously I feel like my brain is quite disintegrated right now. So I'm just gonna post up some photos from the "parties" in the past week.

First, we had our very own Dispatch Christmas Party - nothing really major. Just a small gathering and exchanging of gifts at the La Tegola restaurant. The food in that restaurant is superb at its highest level of superb-ness =)This is surely a must-visit, must-dine for the Italian cuisine lovers.





Unfortunately, no labels for the food :( They're just sooo Italian I couldn't even read them! Hahahah! More photos:


Camwhoring after dinner can be a substitute for dessert! :)

The dress girls and Gee with a crazy pose in the background.

The boys standing proud outside the restaurant.

Then here's me! I've got two new books from Paolo Coelho! Thanks to my manita Lois for being so generous and for making me happy! Now I will surely have something to read for the days that I won't have classes! :) HOOORAH!

Now we move on to our Department's Christmas party at the restobar, Formo. Black and white is the theme! And everyone did really enjoy that night even me who lost the gift my manita Julie was supposed to give me. Because I was sooo excited and giddy... I left the TopShop shirt in the cab :( *sniffs* Well... I'm not really sad cuz I lost that shirt, that particular shirt that I've been wishing to have... I am sad cuz Julie is one of my special friends and the fact that the gift is from her and I lost it... breaks my heart. *sighs* I just couldn't get over it until now... whenever I look back and remember. Isn't that sad? But I think the lesson that I've learned that night is that if God takes something away from you He's bound to give you something greater --- probably not the one you really wanted but something that He knows you deserve to have. I WON THE GRAND PRIZE FOR THE RAFFLE DRAW OF THE NIGHT! =) Julie's prayers were heard! It's still a happy Saturday Party Night after all ;)

And the pictures:

Me and Gelou checking out our outfit before heading out for the party.


L-R: Julie, Gelou, and Mae Ann getting ready to party =)

There's the outfit. I look fatso-tic. Hmpft.

Assorted hot shoes =)

And the hot girls who wore them :)

And the boys being gay! Hahaha!
Almost perfect!
Changed our outfits. Getting ready to hit the stage for our presentation! We danced to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. ;)
Ainie's hot outfit! :) I especially love the shoes! And if only the dress was shorter I would've fallen in love with it, too! :)

Lastly, the after-party photos. Some were really scandalous I couldn't bear to post them here! Hahahah! Even though it is not of me or my friends ;)

Juno dancing with the Tourist-turned-Congressman. Hahaha!

I changed outfits three times in one night! :)

=)
After one bottle of Beer with Green Tea -- I was like "I've got to go guys!" And off to the hotel I went and slept. Almost got in trouble with The Boyfriend because I forgot to text him that I got to the hotel safe and sound cuz I was such a Dizzy Girl!

And here is my favorite picture of that night:

The classic black and white photo in a dance floor. Find me! :)

And here, let me leave you with a...

-tSin

OFF... to exams!

AVATAR next week! :)

Fashion SOS!

I REALLY WANNA WEAR SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR OUR CHRISTMAS PARTY... BUT THE DILEMMA REMAINS... WHERE CAN I EFFIN' FIND THIS?! I'VE GOT A WEEK AND A HALF MORE TO HUNT!

SOS SENT!

-tSin

Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree!

IT'S DECEMBER -- FINALLY! The month we've been waiting all year round! Let me be the first to say...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! =)

I really believe this is most people's favorite season of the year because it's my favoritest, too! :) Can you smell the scent of pines and nuts and winter? I know... we don't have winter here... YET! But please since it is Christmas please allow me to dream on some!

And by the way, the number one on my Christmas Wish List is...

*drum roll*

THIS =)

Nothing beats a good music for the holidays really. I love Christmas songs!

jingle bell rock,

-tSin

I Took Some Days Off To Drown Myself With Booze.

This won't hurt more than a pinch.
so just pour a drink.
lets talk it over.
i'm back after all these years.
don't be affraid my dear.
now i'm older.
~Cobra Starship, One Day, Robots Will Cry

11.30.09 | 07:15:23 | i don't write nights anymore

Too much of the good thing... they say that even the greatest things of all never last. Everything has an end. And that is true... but I think... only if you choose to. There will always be days you could use to relive the good times and some days you can spend for mourning.

As for now... it's a holiday here in the P.I. Not a very big holiday as the Thanksgiving but a holiday to commemorate the greatness of one of our heroes who helped fight to give us back our freedom - Andres Bonifacio. I wonder what everybody else is doing right now although I am pretty sure I am one with them in enjoying the perks of what our heroes fought for: FREEDOM AND NO CLASSES! Too bad I cannot say... "NO WORK!" cuz I will surely be at my desk again tonight giving free psychoanalysis to customers and making sure that their issues get resolved at the end of the day otherwise they'll be back on the phone the next day for another fifteen minutes to an hour - what a way to waste time! On the brighter side, I get some additional pay for working on a holiday. Another perk for having and working holidays. My deepest gratitude to our dear heroes! You've surely made this life of ours more fun and liberating!I love it!

For the past five days I lived like a normal student sans work cuz I took some days off [we were supposed to go to the mystic island of Siquijor, however plans changed and so we decided to stay here -- more of that in a while!] but plus late night outs and almost sleepless nights and then there's a small session with booze. Forgive me, but it has been a very looong time since I last had a date with it [booze]. And with friends by my side... who could resist? I sure will be sent home safely and soundly. During the days I am a regular student - waking up early and prepping up and getting to school just in time! I kinda forgot I was actually employed somewhere. *sighs*

Here are some photos: =)

~there's Teddy at the center and we're all laughing
cuz our legs hit the bars as we try to pedal. hahah!

~this is just sooo Christmassy! don't you love it? :)
i can definitely smell Christmas already!

~swing, swing, swing!
reminds me of the good old grade school days.

~and then we went Go-Carting =)
it was really fun! i wanna DRIVE!

~our tickets and my girlfriends =)
LOVE!

WE SURELY HAD FUN IN FUNLAND! :)

And I guess this should be it for now... I will have to enjoy the rest of my vacation until tonight!


tata,

-tSin

A Pleasant Ashley-Surprise!

Her voice was like angels singing from the heavens when I heard her call my name from across the street. And the moment I saw her gleefully waving with eyes sparkling and perfect whites beaming... I realized it's been AGES since the last time I ever saw her! I couldn't help giving her a very tight embrace the moment I laid my hands on her Hahah! I just miss this baby so much and couldn't stop myself from being gigil...

And look! She really hasn't forgotten her signature pose just yet! =)

This kid is definitely a cutee!

And I also took a picture of myself with her... Of course! I won't let this moment pass! No-no-nope! =)

She's really funny and smart and everything! I would adopt her if I could! She's really one of the persons in the world that can make my gloomy day bright!

love surprises,

-tSin

WOW! that worked! but it looks like the characters are limited like twitter. i think this won't work fairly for me. this should be good for the lazy ones! hahah! the characters are now a bright shade of red telling me to shut up but here i am still typing my heart out. ok... let's... PING IT! :D

this is just a sampler. i'm new at this i swear! so please bear with me! and let's see what happens... in a few seconds! hehe...

You're A Grown Addiction That I Can't Deny.

There is so much a man can tell you
So much he can say
You remain, my power, my pleasure, my pain
~Seal, Kiss From A Rose

11.23.09 | 19:41:54 | and tell me what's healthy baby

I will always remember that very first day I saw you. Who would've known we'd come this far? Nobody ever believed... it was all a joke they said. That you and me we could never be... I was out of your league and so were you out of mine. I will always remember how I've denied wanting you, liking you, and seeing this day with you and yet it has happened. You and me... here and now and forever. It's boy meets girl and all the other complicated things sandwiched in and we can bury them all, really. Forget the past and walk hand in hand with me to meet the future.


I love you. I love the way you hold my hand and the way you look at me. I love never letting go of thoughts of you. I love how much I've changed [for the better, of course] from the day I met you. I love the way you kiss my back with those soft lips of yours. I love the smell of your breath. I love waking up beside you everytime. I love how your fingers brush my hair and the way you tell me how good they smell! :) I love your hair, too. I love your way of making me laugh and annoying and appeasing me all at the same time. I love how you encourage me to be rational and logical in most situations. I love it when you make me wait and make the waiting worth it. I love your way of putting me to sleep - those prayers... your gratefulness for the gift of rest. I love the way you love me. And I swear, as I always tell you and I will never get tired of reminding you, that I really have never felt this way before. Please, my love, stay for as long as you can... and I will do the same. Muah!

Thank you soo much for coming into my life my love. I just realized... I couldn't live without you. What took you so long to find me? Doesn't matter... I am all yours now. :)

with all my love,

~noj2x

I WANT

THESE BABIES!!!

I LOVE TopShop! But I don't think it loves me much, too cuz as far as I know... I couldn't really afford them. Well except for the basic tees [which are really lovely, too!], but the dresses and jeans and bags! Gawd! They are TSIN MUST HAVES BUT COULDN'T REALLY BUY! Pathetic. Tsk. And I'm really head-over-heels gaga over those ULTIMATE SKINNY JEANS that they have! The price?! Php3,095. WOW! The Boyfriend offered to give me half of it so I can buy... I'm still thinking about it! *sighs* Can I win the lottery already?! PLEASE?!


nothing but dreaming,

-tSin

What I Did Last Weekend.

//

what I did? what I did was THIS. And I had a night full of disturbing dreams... nightmarish even. There were crying and heartbreaks [the usual heartbreaking dreams which I really, really HATE]. My theory is that whenever I watch anything at all that's silver screen based that's when I get those crazy dreams and to make things worst... most of the time I remember them. Ugh.

Anyway. I also watched Episode 9 of the Vampire Diaries on Saturday night and that's where I heard this really, really nice song from the indie band, Barcelona... The following are the lyrics of the song entitled Come Back When You Can =)

I've been led on
To think that we've been
Trying for too long.
Every time we drift
We're forcing what is wrong.
At last that voice is gone.

Please take your time
But you've got to know that I am taking sight.
Oh, you look good with your patient face and wandering eye
Don't hold this war inside.

Come back when you can.
Let go, you'll understand.
You've done nothing at all to make me love you less.
So come back when you can.

You left your home
You're so far from
Everything you know
Your big dream is
Crashing down and out your door.
Wake up and dream once more.

Come back when you can.
Let go, you'll understand.
You've done nothing at all to make me love you less.
So come back when you can.

Come back, I'll help you stand.
Let go and hold my hand.
If all you wanted was me, I'd give you nothing less.
So come back when you can

Ahhh... that song is definitely love! You should listen to it! I'm sure that you're gonna love it, too! Hmmm... well if you're like the mushy-mushy kind like me! Heheh... And btw, since my FB account is out as of the moment you can follow me @ Twitter =)

three more years,

-tSin

Manny Sunday

CONGRATULATIONS MANNY "PACMAN" PACQUIAO!!!
You just made all of the Filipinos' weekend!
WE ARE SOOO PROUD OF YOU!

Failure by Design.

This is a lesson in procrastination.
I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.
Every single second that I put it off
Means another lonely night I got to race the clock.
~Brand New, Failure by Design


11.15.09 | 08:30:18 | knock you down

I can never get enough of my life's drama. Everyday another story would sprout from somewhere I don't even want it to! Can I have some other genre? A thriller maybe? Or action? *rolls eyes* Sometimes I think that if only, like seriously, [and I think I might have already thought/written about this a gazillion times!] I can just walk away from everyone as in everyone - I would without thinking twice. I know that people can never live alone and that no man is an island and that we are definitely interdependent with each other... but I think that it's just much better for me to be away from everyone. Well, not away literally but to have distance from everyone as in to be detached from them. No friendship just plain being colleagues or acquaintances. That would be lonely huh? But at the back of my head that's what I want. Something must be really wrong with me to be thinking this way, maybe I'm not human after all. Maybe I'm something else... whatever I am I don't even know. All I know is that I am tired of dealing with people who can't even deal with me. People who run away from me when I need them. People who can say nothing right and who thinks that I can never do anything right and who thinks that I am just a dumbass like that. People who don't trust me, I don't trust you either just so you know. People who pretend they are my friends and that they care about me... I'd rather be alone really than be with you. People who pretend they love me when all they really want is something else. People I can never talk to. People who thinks they are some powerful whatever in the society. People who acts as though they are invincible, as though they will never rot in their earthly graves one day. I just want to be in business with people nothing else. I want to have no emotions at all. I want to be insensitive. I don't want to be human anymore because it is a royal pain in the ass to be one! I want to live my life! I want to! I hate having to say anything that could hurt anyone. I hate the tightness on my chest. I don't want to be afraid of anything or anyone...

I just want to live. Please let me be.

Our lives aren't measured by how many social networking sites we have, by the number of status updates, or by the awesomeness of the photos you upload each day. Life is not a competition but most people think it is... well be it. I'm not joining.


coming back when I can,

-tSin

Inverted.

Hello is our word of the day because [at work] the phone lines are defunct we end up either being hung up or calling back the caller just so we can help them out. Talk about going some extra miles to please somebody and I hope they are truly pleased!

I can't do much Facebooking or Twittering anymore cuz they've got the NICE system up which is not very nice cuz it's definitely taking away part of my happiness. I'm not really very bitter about it since I still can do such things at home it's just that when work becomes inevitably B.O.R.I.N.G and I can't think of anything sensible to blog about... I am left with nothing to do but doze off which is definitely a No-No, I KNOW! Plus one of the HR people is sitting just right in front of us here and she always, always, as in never fail to walk by every working night! I am aware of that and it is embarrassing to be caught sleeping at my desk but sometimes I just couldn't help it especially after a very busy day at school. And speaking of school I am just glad that school is not yet killing me! Except for some minor homework no quizzes have been announced to be given yet! Whoopee! I have been losing some sleep lately... but I'm not minding it because I know that one day all of my sacrifices will pay off. I just have to be really, really patient! I'm crossing my fingers on that and my toes, too! Hahah!

This entry won't be very long. Before I hand you over to mouth-watering photos let me tell you the highlight of my week first. Heheh... And it's... *drum roll please*

I AM BROKE AND POOR - ALL AT ONCE!
[at least this week]

And that's because they gave our pay some 4 days earlier than the usual :( and I've got soooo many stuff to pay and I still have sooo many things to pay and buy and not to mention... Christmas is coming! Yes, I can feel the pressure now. Sometimes situations like this make me think: WHAT THE HECK HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE? I've got not even a centavo in my savings account no make that... I don't even have a savings account! I am planning to straighten this part of my life by the start of next year. Seriously. I have to save and get my act together and stop splurging and quit the impulsive buying. Because if I don't... I think it'll definitely drive me crazier and make me lose more sleep! I hate it... how money can make the world go round when in fact it doesn't even make us any happier at all. :( I really think that it's [money] just a source of evil and temptation and more evil -- I think so because I don't have money! Hahahah!

Moving on... [I still wish though that I will win the lottery one of these days! Hahahah!] Here are some very beautiful and brilliant photos by Elena Kalis. I really adore underwater photographs! They are just A. Amazing, B. Brilliant, and C. Charming. :p

ALICE in WATERLAND

~after all, knowledge is a virtue.

Elena Kalis is a master in this field! Two thumbs up for her genius works! :) Thanks to Anna for sharing this wonderful discovery! I took the photos from her site as well since I can't "right-click-and-copy-paste" the photos from Elena's site [or I just really don't know how! Sheesh!].

And I've got to retire for the moment. Until then!


make no promises,

-tSin

And Here is Where You Will Find Me When I'm No Longer There.

"I will hold on until there is no more reason to.

And in the end, I will break the stars and resurrect the sun."

~I Wrote This For You

Whenever I run out of words to say... you help me out. Seems like you always have the right words to say at the right time. Keep on keeping on @Pleasefindthis =) You are truly inspiring a lot just so you know ;)


i'm now one of your biggest fans,

-tSin