No Longer a Baby.

A picture of him when he was still in 1st grade or so.

 My big little brother is all grown up now! 

A picture of him now.

And I think I'm still in this stage wherein I'm accepting that fact, but don't get me wrong. I am very happy that my baby brother is finally growing up and going out of his shell! He's no longer the very aloof and super shy boy he's so known to be! He can now be asked to buy some stuff from the sari-sari store next to our house and that's a really great achievement knowing him - he could stay inside the house all day that our neighbors would never even know he exists! He's already got a girlfriend *sniffs* when in fact he just used to Facebook stalk those pretty ones, but of course, I am still as happy even though it sort of breaks my heart that we (my sisters and I) have now a kahati with his time and attention. Still, I am happy and I am truly praying that his relationship with his girlfriend goes smoothly and if it does not that it will not break his heart into a million irreparable pieces, that he learns from it and move on without holding on any grudges or bitterness at all.

*sighs*

I've been going these things all over and over inside my head and Tim and he'd often tell me that I'm just having this separation anxiety or something. But I don't think so... I'm probably just not used to seeing my brother being so big and tall and sometimes, doing our laundry. Hahahaha! Kidding aside, I am a proud sister because I've witnessed my brother's positive change throughout the years and I hope he continues to progress to the right direction. I also pray that he becomes a wise, God-fearing, loving gentleman and of course, a good citizen of the world (may he follow in my footsteps! Hahahah!). I definitely love my brother so much although I don't tell him as often, but I really, really, really do! 

love you, dong;

~Ate

Post-Heart and Three Gens of Women.

Here's how we spent our night before heart's day :)

My Big Little Sister treated us (Granny Patty, Tim, and Me) to a two-days-and-one-night stay at the Marriott hotel. The Marriott was awesomeness for all its worth! But that would be a separate story ;)

 

In between Tim and me should read: MY GIRLFRIEND.

Heheh... Not too clear on this one though.

But what the heck? 

Of course, I am his girlfriend. Hahaha!

Anyhoo, that's all for today.

Sorry for the MIA's.

Not in a very good blog-mode lately :(

But I will certainly catch up pretty, pretty soon! 

lots of love,

~tSin

If You Ever Love Somebody, Put Your Hands Up!

Before I proceed with Day 12 (the challenge which I've almost abandoned totally, but not yet really!), let me tell you something first. In my previous blog I did mention something about going to the house of the elderlies, just near my home barangay (because that's exactly where it is), I panicked for a moment when the sun broke in because I felt sort of off as in sick-ish. I was slightly feverish and I felt like vomiting. I thought I couldn't make it but lo and behold! I got my mind to work stronger than my body so... long story short... I made it to the Elderly Outreach Program! And boy, am I glad to have come!

I didn't only get to share my blessings but also I gained new friends and spent time with the elderlies who rarely gets any visits at all from their own family :( Very sad, ain't it? I really feel sorry for them being there and all. I don't know the story behind every one of them but I'm pretty sure it isn't as acceptable. How could we abandon these people who've brought us into the world and raised us as the people that we are now? Well, if all of their immediate family have already gone away (as in deceased) then I would understand but if they're living just a stone's throw away from the elderly home then I think somebody ought to wake them up so they could reflect on what they've done.

Most old people can be really bitter, can't they? I've got a grandma of my own who, despite of her bitterness, I love so much and very thankful of having! The moment I got into those elderly people's rooms and find out a bottle of Lacto Pafi on their bedside table... I got teary-eyed and felt really homesick. I miss my grandma so much. I want her back in our house, but her being very stubborn and all, I'm sure that could be very impossible now. I'm just praying that someday she comes back home to us so we could take care of her and show her more love.

I will never send my parents to the home for the aged. Never. No matter what. No matter how they piss me off sometimes.

~*~

On a lighter note, I am now on...

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one

Let me make this short and brief, awright?

So I found out about Blogger through Google. I made one because I love writing and blogger is like a secret haven most especially if you don't tell anyone about it at all and just let some random people stumble upon it. I've had too many blogger accounts in the past and I'm just happy now that I'm sticking with this and maintaining it as often as I could. I blog mostly about random stuff and whining, but I could really make sense sometimes in my most lucid moments. Hahah! I hope some of my writings did help some though. I love you, all of you, who cares and gives time to read my blog :) Thank you!

asleep is the sun,

~tSin

Troubled.

I am on a high with busyness! But I really am not complaining. If you remember in my previous posts or post... I did mention how I'm actually having fun getting a heap load of things to do! And I honestly love it because it has become my way to de-stress, meet new friends, and also share my ideas. So far, the party deliverables have been delivered successfully (fortunately!) and on the scheduled time! So I couldn't be any more happier! We just have one more week to go before the final event and I surely will be photo-flooding after that! Later today we'll be out to a certain home for the elders ran by the Seven Sisters (or I think that's what the name of the place is!) and I am hyped because it is going to be my first time to join an outreach project ever! I couldn't wait at all! Everything's packed up -- presents and all! We're just waiting for time now to go.

Moving on, I've skipped too many days and I really am sorry! My busyness couldn't be an excuse, can it? But I'll make it up today. So here goes:

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Some friends I've literally spent like half of my lifetime as of date -- my friends from the Marian Youth Choir. It's almost December and flash back to the time when all I ever worried about was school and boys and hitting the notes on a Handel musical piece... I spent most of my free time with this wonderful lot! And two of my most memorable and favorite times of the year are summer and December when we'd spend a lot of time rehearsing Christmas carols so we could house hop and sing some and also earn some moolah to spend for our Christmas party :D The MYC Parties were never as grand but they were always fun-filled because it's the only time of year when we could gather and just simply laugh! Kuya Alec is truly a great joker in his own way so there is never a dull moment with these people! I am missing them so much right now because it has been months and months already since the last time I've ever seen the group! I think I got too busy with work or what not that I couldn't give the same commitment to the group anymore as I've had before :| It's really sad, but I do try every now and then to visit them or join the singing whenever time permits! They've become a great part in my life and they would never be easy to forget or will they ever be replaceable. They are definitely like my second family already!

Speaking of family... I am actually troubled and torn between my desire to be wholly independent through moving out and living by myself or just staying where I am now -- with my family. I've been thinking for more than a year already about this, but I just couldn't seem to carry my butt out of the house. And in one heated argument with my father, he explicitly told me that I could never leave the house unless I get married! I was like, wth?! That's not even going to be until ten years from now or who knows when?! I felt very bad, but when I realize that I couldn't actually pack my things up (as in everything) in just one suitcase... I told myself to give it a little more time, a little more reevaluation, and more, more, more thinking! It's not going to be easy. It's going to be an additional financial load. But it's going to be really, really exhilarating and liberating! BUT some angels are also stopping me from leaving...

My sibs:

I think this is the only decent picture I've ever had with my siblings... well, except when we were still in our toddler years. We don't always get along pretty well, but I do love them. And they always make me stronger every time. They make me want to fight for life whenever I feel like it's just much easier to let go and give up. They make everything seem bearable. I am thankful of them because without them I wouldn't have been as responsible as I am now. I do love these kiddos no matter what!

I guess I am left with some more thinking for now. Sooner or later, I really will have to leave anyhow.

It's the year of the masks,

~tSin