I'm Just Not A Regular Thing

Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be
~Stars, Heart

10.04.09 | 05:19:46 | incurable romantics

Why do I need to feel pain or sadness to write anything at all? I guess that's just how it's got to be with me huh? I think I am very uninspired lately. Look, I messed up with this other blog, it's not right at all! :(

I've got to get my act together... you've probably read that in most of my blogs for the gazzillionth time it's already boring. But really and seriously, I've got to. And I think I should buy a new pen later so I could write on my journal again! I can't believe how true my G-tech madness really is. Since I've lost it, I just haven't written in my journal in ages at all! And I think I should focus on the "food-cutting" cuz I am sooo fat and I weigh 54kgs already! Nooooooo! I should panic now, right? Hmmm... Let me not be too hard on myself... I'll do food-cutting and crunches again otherwise I will just bloat on forever!

The list of I-should's could go on and on and on. I've got to realize them. I've just got to. Hmpft. Too much about that... I don't wanna rant anymore about myself or about my condemned fatness. It's October I've got to shape up!

Ugh. I sound so lame today... I will have to blog again later when I'm sober and not at all groggy. Nope. I didn't spend my Saturday night drinking! But I am definitely drunk with Stars. Their music is just sooo wicked and amazing! I love them cuz they make me feel INFINITE, prolly that's why they named their band Stars. Hmmm... Listen to them, too! =) Yes you should! And I swear you won't regret!

don't be afraid to sing,

-tSin

P.S.

Katy Perry's concert has been moved to November 14!

Come save me from walking off a windowsill or I'll sleep in the rain.

He took the days for pageant
Became as mad as rabbits
With bushels of bad habits
~Panic! At the Disco, Mad As Rabbits

09.26.09 | 05:48:12 | weathering the storm

It's been raining endless (scratching that cuz I might have been exaggerating) for days and there's a storm coming... so, hello STORMY weekend.

I am such a loser... I haven't posted anything at all for the past days. I'm sorry. But I swear I'm gonna fill you up today with news about yours truly.

I guess the main reason why I wasn't able to write or blog is that I got too busy doing OTs (working mostly from 9pm to 9am) and I swear I've been having headaches cuz we've got very high call volume during the past couple or three weeks. I must admit... it was all too exhausting, I almost got sick! But good news dearies, my tummy is now working at its best! Thanks to the very efficient Doctor who prescribed me those very helpful medicines... now I'm stomach-ache free! Yay! I should celebrate, I should. =) And of course, I should remind myself now and then to give the snobs to sodas and coffee (although I seldom, seldom, seldom drink coffee!) and anything else that is acidic so that my stomach could fully recover from its almost dead state. I sure do feel lots better than before I started taking those meds. Gosh! I cant' believe how I've become such a drug addict in a short period of time. Hahaha! Of course I am kidding on being a drug addict! I swear I'm not!

Ok. Enough about that and let's move on. So... while I was away... I spent most of my limited free time on:

-catching up with sleep (sleeping at night is still the best remedy and the best way to detoxify!);

-reading this and this book =);

-watching some movies with The Boyfriend (we've finally finished watching the Terminator Salvation! Christian Bale was sooo hot in that movie!);

-I found a link for that movie 500 Days of Summer (I definitely love their OSTs! And I swear Zooey Deschannel does look like a lot like Katy Perry!!!) so I started to watch it but I got too lazy and impatient waiting for the stream to load I had to stop watching it after 45 minutes;

-a bit of shopping! I finally got myself these:

actually, The Boyfriend gave me that =) Included in the shopping were two new pair of jeans and a couple of dresses which I really, really LOVE (I don't have a picture of it yet though, but I'll update you as soon as I have!) I'm still looking forward to buying a few more dresses.

-celebrating our 14 months together over a sumptuous breakfast of pancakes and ground pork and corned beef and a heart-warming mushroom soup!

-convincing The Boyfriend to go to the beach on a rainy day. I sooo wanted to go because I had a new bikini to flaunt! Haha! But of course I didn't tell The Boyfriend that and it also wasn't the primary reason why I wanted to go anyway - I just wanted to get away from the city for a while and be with him and only him on our special day really :)

so to the beach we went :)
if you wanna see my skimpiness, you can click HERE
but don't blame me if you wouldn't like what you see! haha!

what else kept me busy... *thinking tight*

OH OF COURSE!

-watching The Vampire Diaries series. Elena is really pretty!

-watching the whole new season of GGX (as in Gossip Girl. I just wanna call it GGX!).

I guess... I was just living life the way God wanted me to live it... I am enjoying every moment of it! No matter how tiresome some days got and no matter how I wanted to give up already! Be proud of me cuz I'm still standing strong and HAPPY. =)

And oh! Yesterday, I had my fill of all of my cravings! Well, except for one: POPCORN! But Julie brought some Mojos from Shakey's and I was überly delighted! And then mum brought home some pomelo, lanzones, and sweet corn! I was very, very full - I definitely felt so bloated afterwards! I guess I will never be able to tell my success story on losing a good number of weight without dieting. Ugh! Eating is just too heavenly good to be said no to, right? Who can say NO to FOOD?! Nobody. Unless you're really crazy about your weight or something like it's already psychotic.

Ho-hum... I am just glad -super glad- that it is the weekend already! I could sleep the whole day and then prolly, if it doesnt' rain, go out with Lois and Juno later tonight at The Outpost to catch some good music (I've read from the B.I.T.E Mag that the place is going to play some Ska tonight. We'll see.) and then just enjoy the rest of my days off relaxing or sleeping, per se.

By the way, I just found a new craze (aside from my regular music-hunting)! Let me call it Tsin's Looklet Craze. =) I just love it and it's definitely soooo addictive! Haha! Here are my masterpieces (some beginner's stuff, really. nothing major!):

~they're pretty safe designs and mix-matches.
I always want to stay with comfort and elegance and a bit
(just a tiny bit) of craziness ;)

And right now, I am most looking forward to watching the Inglourious Basterds -- like supermassively! I've been waiting for sooo long so please let me watch already! Then there's the whole new season of Dexter by Monday! I couldn't wait as well!

Alright, time to wrap up now. I've got to go. Let me leave you with this picture of mine -- me wearing the neon pink sunglasses and crazy polka dress! I feel like a kid! Haha!

Is it me? Or is it really? Whenever those weather forecasters tell us there's going to be a storm the sun shines brightly outside... Hmmm... But yeah, I am aware that in another part of the world some are struggling to survive the very strong winds and the chilling rain and of course, praying that their homes won't get lost in the storm. I'll be praying for them, too.

i don't wannna wait,

-tSin

Oh You're Supposed to Care But I Think You're Really Mean.

Then i remember all the nice things
that you've ever said to me,
maybe i'm just over reacting
maybe you're the one for me.
~Lily Allen, Not Fair

09.16.09 | 06:07:32 | stinking

A day like this reminds me of a friend who has got this weird belief that whenever you're having a happy hour there will always be a sappy hour after that. I didn't vocally agree with her back then but at the back of my head I really do agree with her... with all my heart because I have experienced the same thing it's just that I didn't want to convince myself completely that it's really like that. That things just get f*cked up in a blink of an eye. So we go out with this friend and spend the whole day in laughter only to find her really quiet at the end of the day, sulking at one end of the jeepney on our ride home... lost in her own thoughts. And whenever we'd find the courage to ask her what's keeping her so still and quiet she would just shake her head and her forehead would then crease into a frown. Later on we found out about her little theory. I realized I wasn't very alone with that belief. Even Charlie in the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower (which I have proudly finished reading already by the end of last week! hahah!) wrote a thing about that as well. I'll try to put that part here once I find it... as of the moment I'm still browsing through the e-book, trying hard to look for it. :S EDIT: Guess what? You can actually find it here - I made a polaroid postcard of it ;)

Why the drama, you're wondering? I don't know. I've been feeling unwell the past days because of my friggin' stomach. It makes me feel so ill, I wanna stay home and not work at all! Ugh. And just last night... I felt a bit better, prolly cuz I asked for the right medicine from the clinic and it worked! Plus, I didn't feel sleepy at all the whole of my shift! I was thinking that since Julie gave me her very lovely headband... that could've been the reason for my happy state today.

~now look at that? isn't that a beauty?

~a beauty indeed! thanks Julie! :)

Or maybe, I'm just too excited to see the doctor later on although I am also afraid to undergo endoscopy! But I don't think I would mind much because right now I'm just as desperate to know if my stomach will not really be the death of me (cuz with all the pain that it has been giving me these days, it really makes me think that it would be!). I want to be free of this stomach ache forever!

Ok. It's crazy how my mood swings can really swing from center to either hard left or right most of the time. Some minutes ago I was so happy and feeling infinite (or almost) and the next minute I just didn't feel like talking or doing anything at all. *sighs* I hate it whenever my mind runs fast and functions double time... it drives me nuts!

I am also somewhat upset because... remember the Katy Perry concert that I was sooo excited about? I won't be able to go (and that's final) and as though that isn't worst enough... The Boyfriend seems to be very happy about the fact that I won't be able to afford to buy myself a flight ticket and the concert ticket itself. I understand how he cares about my finances but I really wanted to go at least he'd been a bit, even just an inch, supportive. But he wasn't at all. I guess he tried to... I wasn't convinced. Well... looking at the brighter side... at least I will be able to save enough money for my school come back this coming November and money to pay to Chiclois, since I will be buying her phone (a really cool one, I should say!) and not going to the concert means more money to spend on dresses :)

I am particularly eyeing these (for parties and night outs, right?):

check it out here :)

hi reina,
-tSin

OMG! It's Amazing That I'm Still Breathing!

I'm out on my own again

Face down in the porcelain

Feeling so high but looking so low

~Katy Perry, Lost

09.13.09 | 04:12:09 | i just can't hide it

I am really, really, REALLY almost out of breath right now! Because I just found out that the loveliest and most talented and artistic person alive (in my book!) KATY PERRY is going to have a concert in Manila, in SM MOA to be exact, on the 3rd of October 2009 and that's a Saturday! Yes! I've written that right - she is going to Manila to grace us with her awesome music and style! I couldn't help being sooo excited about it. The tix prices range from a good Php400 (but for sure that's gonna take you waaaayyyy to the back of the concert area!) to Php3,500 (if you've got money to splurge and you really love Katy Perry you should take that, I say!) - not very bad, right? EDIT: Here's the seat map for the concert (just so you can see how far the Bronze seats at Php400 are!):

Sooo... Did I already say that I'm very excited about her concert? Haha! I truly, really, certainly am! After reading this article about the concert details I then logged on to CebuPacificAir.com to check on the prices for the flights and guess what I've found? They are actually running this Php1000.00 off promotion for all flights EACH WAY! And I found very good prices for the flight: P3,867.20 for two people, roundtrip! Isn't that heavenly AMAZING and not to mention fabulously AWESOME?! Oh my! I haven't bought the flight tix yet cuz I still have to confirm if I can really go and will also have to consult The Boyfriend plus I don't have a credit card (nope, not anymore.) to use to purchase the flight tix :(( As for the Cebu Pacific promo there is a code that you can use so you can get the Php1000.00 off each way ;) The code? TWEET. The promotion is also good for some other destinations as well -- I've checked on Clark and Singapore, too. Just because. Hehe...

~yes, the poster.

OH I HOPE AND WISH AND PRAY THAT I CAN WATCH KATY PERRY'S CONCERT! That would be a very nice advance Christmas gift if I could go! I really, really, really wanna go - like seriously. I really am a big fan of Katy Perry! I swear! And if anyone, as in anyone at all, could get me tickets to Katy Perry's concert FOR FREE... God bless you! =)

And btw, Katy Perry will also be playing with Boys Like Girls... so if you're not sooo into Perry then prolly the Boys Like Girls band will give you consolation. Nevertheless, it's going to be a great one cuz Katy Perry will be there! And I am soooo excited. Irrational cuz I'm not even sure yet if I could really go at all, but I am very, very hopeful that I could. Hmmm...

Anyhooser, here are some photos of Katy Perry and you can check more of this right here: iheartkatyperry

~AH! Who wouldn't wanna watch her live?!

Get your tickets at the TicketWorld NOW!!! =)

please let me see perry,

-tSin

The Clock Is Ticking and I'm Still Breathing

I leave the gas on, walk the alleys in the dark

sleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlocked

I'm weaving a rope and, running all the red lights

~Katy Perry, I'm Still Breathing

07.28.09 | 07:08:24 | misdiagnosed

And that's probably what I am doing or should be doing right now - UPGRADE/ING MYSELF. The weekend was frustrating because I was itching badly to blog or write but nothing would come out of my head... I mean something that would make sense and something that would be quite interesting. Well actually, nothing really very interesting happened during the weekend, I just spent it sleeping and browsing through some videos of Katy Perry - I swear she's really good! Go ahead and check out her videos, particularly those that were shot live - they are definitely amazing, giving me more reason to fall in love with the Great Katy Perry! She's not just a musician and a fashion icon that I am swooning on but also an epitome of prettiness (in my book!). =) If there's any celebrity or artist's closet that I can raid... it would be Katy Perry's in a heartbeat!

Yesterday, The Boyfriend and I were watching this TV show called Unique Autoshop or something where they fix and customize cars and we were really fascinated by it. Actually, our fascination for cars have grown tremendously in the past days or say weeks or months and everytime we go around the city in his ride or while riding the jeepney we couldn't help looking at the different kinds of cars that would pass us by. He's even thinking of taking some short course on auto-mechanics so that he'd be more familiar with it and I think he's really digging on cars and the machineries of it right now. As for me, I'm still dreaming of becoming an F1 racer. Hahah! I don't even really know how to drive perfectly just yet! Or probably I could still work for F1... wheel changer or something? Well, I really, really, really want to learn how to drive and drift and learn everything there is to learn about cars and whta not. Some months ago I was even thinking of dropping off Psychology for good and take up a course in Mechanical Engineering instead. I'm still thinking of doing that now... but I don't think it would be too practical. Right?

Ah! For now I'll just have to dream of Ferraris and Lamborghinis and of course F1 and driving side by side with Hamilton. ;p

keep dreaming,

~tSin