Inspiration Away

I'm working on my 5th day letter for my dreams, but my brain seems to be not functioning at its peak so I decided to just post pictures of the good things that happened to me recently -- it was all pretty tiring, trust me. But I did survive and here I am typing away so I'm still happy and grateful for all the blessings that God has given me! ♥And since I lack inspiration to write anything at all here are the photos to speak for me...

First, I got loads of stuff from my very lovely friend from Belgium, Lovely Joy. Some of the many beautiful things a girl could ever dream of -- MAKE UP! I've got three new shades of lipstick (but I gave one to my Mama since she's been hoping too long to get one!), two lip glosses, one set of eyeshadow + lip paints and another set of eyeshadow! Lalalove! All the colors are heavenly! I especially like the neon-pinkish H&M lip gloss :D

Together with the make-up is this very lovely H&M top. I really like it and it feels very comfortable! The cloth is überly nice since it can keep you warm in a highly ac'd room and just as cool under the heat of the sun! I've tested this myself in one standing! Lol! Is there even such a word? Anyhoo, too bad it's just Joy's mom who went home to the P.I this time :( I couldn't wait to see her! I've let slip so many chances to meet her in the past few years. I swear when she comes back (hopefully, next year!) I'll really, really see her! ♥


The calls were some gruesome monsters on Friday night! Breaths could only be taken during breaks it was truly exhausting! But Sho made us some hotdogs which we enjoyed to munch in between calls! I really love Tender Juicy Hotdogs! I've been a fan since the first time I ever had teeth to eat them whole! Lol!


The Boyfriend and I went on a side trip to Naga -- a town (or city?) located in the southern part of Cebu. They are going to have their annual fiesta today which by the way is 10.10.10. Hurry up and make a wish! :D I really like those girls in pink and white majorette uniforms! Makes me want to be one of them!!! If I could twist a stick, I would without doubt!


All the girls and boys were swooning over some muscled boy running in very tight triathlon apparel (well they're supposed to be really body hugging for comfort!). I was asking The Boyf if some artista was part of the race because the audience are screaming and shrieking more than the usual cheering! And then he passed by then bam! It's... Mateo Guidicelli! Did I spell that alright? I hope I did cuz this boy is indeed pretty and as The Boyf put it: the real deal. I'm not sure why he said that though. It's not like they know each other. Maybe because he's an artista, a racer, a model, and a health buff, too? I really don't know.


The main reason why we were in that part of the province is to support this guy in his first ever Triathlon! And he didn't fail us! He did bag the second place for his age category! And we are sooo proud! Oh! Please don't mind my silly expression!


Lastly... I've found some new additions to my survival kit! I think that I've fallen in love completely with that amazing Carmex lip balm! It's soo minty and it definitely peels off the ugly cracks and dead skin off my lips! Of course the neon-pinkish H&M lip gloss is super duper love! Mango & mint tic-tacs! And unfortunately, the lipstick got cut off when I converted it into a polaroid. But I do love this new shade: magenta-violet. Love love love! :)


Thanks sooo much Joy for all the beautiful stuff :)


And lastly, I've let out one secret. However, I still got more that I'm not ready to tell yet. So will you keep my secret?


AND OH! I'm sort of giddy for The Boyfriend's participation to the RUN TO THE MAX fun run later! He's chosen to run 16k this time! I know he can make it! I've given him some hopefully helpful advice of positive thinking, willpower, determination (he's already got that! Imagine running in the rain! :o), and never-ending passion for what he loves to do! I know he can make it, oh, did I already tell?

hear my wish today,

~tSin

P.S.

That Poladroid stuff I told you some blogs ago is really amazing! I couldn't get over it! I could seriously convert all of my photos to polaroids and not tire looking at them!

In Case You're Wondering...

Where I've been lately...

Well, I've been practicing my doodling skills --- not much, but enough to make me get through some things that bother me every now and then.


It's already the last day of June. I'm not back in school... won't probably be back by the next semester even. Not really sure though. No final words just yet. We'll have to find out a couple of months from now.

And it's finally going to be July tomorrow already! How time flies by so fast! And before we'll even know... It's already Christmas time. Hahah! Am I waaay too ahead of myself?!

Catch up with you guys soon when I have more time to write something which will make sense.

Gone for break,

-tSin

Turn It Off

We're taking shortcuts and false solutions

Just to come out the hero.

~Paramore, Turn It Off

03.27.10 | 14:29:23 | the worst part

I don't think I can ever be forgiven! I've been M.I.A waaaaay too long it's sickening to even think about! Since 2010 came I've never even posted anything that's worth reading or coming back for! Well, I think one of the reasons could be... I can't post blogs at the office anymore :( They're so strict there already, but what can I do huh? I am just a slave awaiting to arise... to dethrone the masters and mistresses. Well, that sounds sort of... evilish.

Moving forward, as a come backer post... let me fill you in with some updates of the past, what, three months? A couple of weeks ago I legally turned twelve dozen! I still dread giving out my real age! I don't know! I feel old and crippled to still be here right where I am at this age! Back in high school, I imagined myself to be successful and rich and everything else nice (only) at the age past 20, yet here I am. Incarcerated by my own laziness, fueled stagnant by procrastination -- I suddenly felt like a loser. Prolly, I could've gone to med or law school if I was ambitious enough, but then I am mostly contented of the average and the mediocre. I know, that's sad. Sometimes, I dream of waking up the next day in a mansion, on a luxurious bed with a couple of maids to attend to my every whim and need just as I dreamed before of getting perfect grades without studying a bit. Yes, my imagination is unfortunately demented, defective, whatsoever. Ho-hum. And all I can do is just take a deep breath and sigh and wish that I could find a genie in a bottle who could grant me even just one wish then I would wish that all my wishes would come true! Hahah!

*Sighs*

My mind is racing fast. Thinking about a lot of things again: Disappointed in most and angered in some. I am torn between expressing such anguish and just forgetting about them and posting some of my pictures from the Sinulog festival which jump-started the year up to the recent trip in Manila with The Boyfriend which by the way was really fun and exciting yet excruciatingly painful that even now my feet and legs are still a bit weak from all the walkings we've done in the city. I'm not complaining for it was all worth it! I just wish that I could've been more prepared - that's it.

I believe I would have to find another time to provide you with more updates. As for now I will have to go back to the sack and indulge myself in reading. I haven't done so for a long time! Even longer than the time that I haven't written anything!

I need a blackberry,

-tSin

I Am Telling You Now What I Forgot to Tell You The Last Time

Look at me

I've got bangs! =)

Yes! And that's what I forgot to tell you guys the last time I posted something here! So there posting another highlight of mine for this year on Christmas day! How do you like my hair now? Haha!Oh before I totally lose myself with narcissistic indulgence... let me say once again a Happy Christmas to everyone!

Btw, I just finished watching Sex and the City and I must say that it is now one of my favoritest movie ever! =) And partly cuz of that movie I was inspired to write The Boyfriend a love-letter-turned-out-getting-off-some-heavy-weight-thoughts-off-my-chest! I hope he wouldn't mind!

finding some party,

-tSin

I Took Some Days Off To Drown Myself With Booze.

This won't hurt more than a pinch.
so just pour a drink.
lets talk it over.
i'm back after all these years.
don't be affraid my dear.
now i'm older.
~Cobra Starship, One Day, Robots Will Cry

11.30.09 | 07:15:23 | i don't write nights anymore

Too much of the good thing... they say that even the greatest things of all never last. Everything has an end. And that is true... but I think... only if you choose to. There will always be days you could use to relive the good times and some days you can spend for mourning.

As for now... it's a holiday here in the P.I. Not a very big holiday as the Thanksgiving but a holiday to commemorate the greatness of one of our heroes who helped fight to give us back our freedom - Andres Bonifacio. I wonder what everybody else is doing right now although I am pretty sure I am one with them in enjoying the perks of what our heroes fought for: FREEDOM AND NO CLASSES! Too bad I cannot say... "NO WORK!" cuz I will surely be at my desk again tonight giving free psychoanalysis to customers and making sure that their issues get resolved at the end of the day otherwise they'll be back on the phone the next day for another fifteen minutes to an hour - what a way to waste time! On the brighter side, I get some additional pay for working on a holiday. Another perk for having and working holidays. My deepest gratitude to our dear heroes! You've surely made this life of ours more fun and liberating!I love it!

For the past five days I lived like a normal student sans work cuz I took some days off [we were supposed to go to the mystic island of Siquijor, however plans changed and so we decided to stay here -- more of that in a while!] but plus late night outs and almost sleepless nights and then there's a small session with booze. Forgive me, but it has been a very looong time since I last had a date with it [booze]. And with friends by my side... who could resist? I sure will be sent home safely and soundly. During the days I am a regular student - waking up early and prepping up and getting to school just in time! I kinda forgot I was actually employed somewhere. *sighs*

Here are some photos: =)

~there's Teddy at the center and we're all laughing
cuz our legs hit the bars as we try to pedal. hahah!

~this is just sooo Christmassy! don't you love it? :)
i can definitely smell Christmas already!

~swing, swing, swing!
reminds me of the good old grade school days.

~and then we went Go-Carting =)
it was really fun! i wanna DRIVE!

~our tickets and my girlfriends =)
LOVE!

WE SURELY HAD FUN IN FUNLAND! :)

And I guess this should be it for now... I will have to enjoy the rest of my vacation until tonight!


tata,

-tSin

I WANT

THESE BABIES!!!

I LOVE TopShop! But I don't think it loves me much, too cuz as far as I know... I couldn't really afford them. Well except for the basic tees [which are really lovely, too!], but the dresses and jeans and bags! Gawd! They are TSIN MUST HAVES BUT COULDN'T REALLY BUY! Pathetic. Tsk. And I'm really head-over-heels gaga over those ULTIMATE SKINNY JEANS that they have! The price?! Php3,095. WOW! The Boyfriend offered to give me half of it so I can buy... I'm still thinking about it! *sighs* Can I win the lottery already?! PLEASE?!


nothing but dreaming,

-tSin

Vote for Me! =)

for the LUDIC FUR CONTEST!!! =)

It's like a spur-of-the-moment-me-deciding-that-I-should-join-this-contest. For short: NOTHING REALLY SERIOUS =) This is a contest that one of my current addictions is holding and I was actually influenced by my friend Teenee to join and make my own entry. So here I am and here's my entry:

this model is just so so so lovely! i ♥ her! :)

isn't that fur stuff cool? :D

and the boots are especially BEE-YOO-TIII-FUUULLL!

i love the pink tights, too!

Please vote for me! All you need to do is go to this site and view my entry and just click on the ♥ icon to like my entry. And voila! You're on your way to helping me in winning the ludic fur =) The entry which has the most number of likes wins the prize. You can vote for an entry for only once a day and I'm still four days before the final verdict... We still have time! We can do this! Thanksss so much in advance to everyone who's gonna vote for me! Muah!

i am, i am too fabulous,

-tSin

I'm Just Not A Regular Thing

Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be
~Stars, Heart

10.04.09 | 05:19:46 | incurable romantics

Why do I need to feel pain or sadness to write anything at all? I guess that's just how it's got to be with me huh? I think I am very uninspired lately. Look, I messed up with this other blog, it's not right at all! :(

I've got to get my act together... you've probably read that in most of my blogs for the gazzillionth time it's already boring. But really and seriously, I've got to. And I think I should buy a new pen later so I could write on my journal again! I can't believe how true my G-tech madness really is. Since I've lost it, I just haven't written in my journal in ages at all! And I think I should focus on the "food-cutting" cuz I am sooo fat and I weigh 54kgs already! Nooooooo! I should panic now, right? Hmmm... Let me not be too hard on myself... I'll do food-cutting and crunches again otherwise I will just bloat on forever!

The list of I-should's could go on and on and on. I've got to realize them. I've just got to. Hmpft. Too much about that... I don't wanna rant anymore about myself or about my condemned fatness. It's October I've got to shape up!

Ugh. I sound so lame today... I will have to blog again later when I'm sober and not at all groggy. Nope. I didn't spend my Saturday night drinking! But I am definitely drunk with Stars. Their music is just sooo wicked and amazing! I love them cuz they make me feel INFINITE, prolly that's why they named their band Stars. Hmmm... Listen to them, too! =) Yes you should! And I swear you won't regret!

don't be afraid to sing,

-tSin

P.S.

Katy Perry's concert has been moved to November 14!

Come save me from walking off a windowsill or I'll sleep in the rain.

He took the days for pageant
Became as mad as rabbits
With bushels of bad habits
~Panic! At the Disco, Mad As Rabbits

09.26.09 | 05:48:12 | weathering the storm

It's been raining endless (scratching that cuz I might have been exaggerating) for days and there's a storm coming... so, hello STORMY weekend.

I am such a loser... I haven't posted anything at all for the past days. I'm sorry. But I swear I'm gonna fill you up today with news about yours truly.

I guess the main reason why I wasn't able to write or blog is that I got too busy doing OTs (working mostly from 9pm to 9am) and I swear I've been having headaches cuz we've got very high call volume during the past couple or three weeks. I must admit... it was all too exhausting, I almost got sick! But good news dearies, my tummy is now working at its best! Thanks to the very efficient Doctor who prescribed me those very helpful medicines... now I'm stomach-ache free! Yay! I should celebrate, I should. =) And of course, I should remind myself now and then to give the snobs to sodas and coffee (although I seldom, seldom, seldom drink coffee!) and anything else that is acidic so that my stomach could fully recover from its almost dead state. I sure do feel lots better than before I started taking those meds. Gosh! I cant' believe how I've become such a drug addict in a short period of time. Hahaha! Of course I am kidding on being a drug addict! I swear I'm not!

Ok. Enough about that and let's move on. So... while I was away... I spent most of my limited free time on:

-catching up with sleep (sleeping at night is still the best remedy and the best way to detoxify!);

-reading this and this book =);

-watching some movies with The Boyfriend (we've finally finished watching the Terminator Salvation! Christian Bale was sooo hot in that movie!);

-I found a link for that movie 500 Days of Summer (I definitely love their OSTs! And I swear Zooey Deschannel does look like a lot like Katy Perry!!!) so I started to watch it but I got too lazy and impatient waiting for the stream to load I had to stop watching it after 45 minutes;

-a bit of shopping! I finally got myself these:

actually, The Boyfriend gave me that =) Included in the shopping were two new pair of jeans and a couple of dresses which I really, really LOVE (I don't have a picture of it yet though, but I'll update you as soon as I have!) I'm still looking forward to buying a few more dresses.

-celebrating our 14 months together over a sumptuous breakfast of pancakes and ground pork and corned beef and a heart-warming mushroom soup!

-convincing The Boyfriend to go to the beach on a rainy day. I sooo wanted to go because I had a new bikini to flaunt! Haha! But of course I didn't tell The Boyfriend that and it also wasn't the primary reason why I wanted to go anyway - I just wanted to get away from the city for a while and be with him and only him on our special day really :)

so to the beach we went :)
if you wanna see my skimpiness, you can click HERE
but don't blame me if you wouldn't like what you see! haha!

what else kept me busy... *thinking tight*

OH OF COURSE!

-watching The Vampire Diaries series. Elena is really pretty!

-watching the whole new season of GGX (as in Gossip Girl. I just wanna call it GGX!).

I guess... I was just living life the way God wanted me to live it... I am enjoying every moment of it! No matter how tiresome some days got and no matter how I wanted to give up already! Be proud of me cuz I'm still standing strong and HAPPY. =)

And oh! Yesterday, I had my fill of all of my cravings! Well, except for one: POPCORN! But Julie brought some Mojos from Shakey's and I was überly delighted! And then mum brought home some pomelo, lanzones, and sweet corn! I was very, very full - I definitely felt so bloated afterwards! I guess I will never be able to tell my success story on losing a good number of weight without dieting. Ugh! Eating is just too heavenly good to be said no to, right? Who can say NO to FOOD?! Nobody. Unless you're really crazy about your weight or something like it's already psychotic.

Ho-hum... I am just glad -super glad- that it is the weekend already! I could sleep the whole day and then prolly, if it doesnt' rain, go out with Lois and Juno later tonight at The Outpost to catch some good music (I've read from the B.I.T.E Mag that the place is going to play some Ska tonight. We'll see.) and then just enjoy the rest of my days off relaxing or sleeping, per se.

By the way, I just found a new craze (aside from my regular music-hunting)! Let me call it Tsin's Looklet Craze. =) I just love it and it's definitely soooo addictive! Haha! Here are my masterpieces (some beginner's stuff, really. nothing major!):

~they're pretty safe designs and mix-matches.
I always want to stay with comfort and elegance and a bit
(just a tiny bit) of craziness ;)

And right now, I am most looking forward to watching the Inglourious Basterds -- like supermassively! I've been waiting for sooo long so please let me watch already! Then there's the whole new season of Dexter by Monday! I couldn't wait as well!

Alright, time to wrap up now. I've got to go. Let me leave you with this picture of mine -- me wearing the neon pink sunglasses and crazy polka dress! I feel like a kid! Haha!

Is it me? Or is it really? Whenever those weather forecasters tell us there's going to be a storm the sun shines brightly outside... Hmmm... But yeah, I am aware that in another part of the world some are struggling to survive the very strong winds and the chilling rain and of course, praying that their homes won't get lost in the storm. I'll be praying for them, too.

i don't wannna wait,

-tSin

Oh You're Supposed to Care But I Think You're Really Mean.

Then i remember all the nice things
that you've ever said to me,
maybe i'm just over reacting
maybe you're the one for me.
~Lily Allen, Not Fair

09.16.09 | 06:07:32 | stinking

A day like this reminds me of a friend who has got this weird belief that whenever you're having a happy hour there will always be a sappy hour after that. I didn't vocally agree with her back then but at the back of my head I really do agree with her... with all my heart because I have experienced the same thing it's just that I didn't want to convince myself completely that it's really like that. That things just get f*cked up in a blink of an eye. So we go out with this friend and spend the whole day in laughter only to find her really quiet at the end of the day, sulking at one end of the jeepney on our ride home... lost in her own thoughts. And whenever we'd find the courage to ask her what's keeping her so still and quiet she would just shake her head and her forehead would then crease into a frown. Later on we found out about her little theory. I realized I wasn't very alone with that belief. Even Charlie in the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower (which I have proudly finished reading already by the end of last week! hahah!) wrote a thing about that as well. I'll try to put that part here once I find it... as of the moment I'm still browsing through the e-book, trying hard to look for it. :S EDIT: Guess what? You can actually find it here - I made a polaroid postcard of it ;)

Why the drama, you're wondering? I don't know. I've been feeling unwell the past days because of my friggin' stomach. It makes me feel so ill, I wanna stay home and not work at all! Ugh. And just last night... I felt a bit better, prolly cuz I asked for the right medicine from the clinic and it worked! Plus, I didn't feel sleepy at all the whole of my shift! I was thinking that since Julie gave me her very lovely headband... that could've been the reason for my happy state today.

~now look at that? isn't that a beauty?

~a beauty indeed! thanks Julie! :)

Or maybe, I'm just too excited to see the doctor later on although I am also afraid to undergo endoscopy! But I don't think I would mind much because right now I'm just as desperate to know if my stomach will not really be the death of me (cuz with all the pain that it has been giving me these days, it really makes me think that it would be!). I want to be free of this stomach ache forever!

Ok. It's crazy how my mood swings can really swing from center to either hard left or right most of the time. Some minutes ago I was so happy and feeling infinite (or almost) and the next minute I just didn't feel like talking or doing anything at all. *sighs* I hate it whenever my mind runs fast and functions double time... it drives me nuts!

I am also somewhat upset because... remember the Katy Perry concert that I was sooo excited about? I won't be able to go (and that's final) and as though that isn't worst enough... The Boyfriend seems to be very happy about the fact that I won't be able to afford to buy myself a flight ticket and the concert ticket itself. I understand how he cares about my finances but I really wanted to go at least he'd been a bit, even just an inch, supportive. But he wasn't at all. I guess he tried to... I wasn't convinced. Well... looking at the brighter side... at least I will be able to save enough money for my school come back this coming November and money to pay to Chiclois, since I will be buying her phone (a really cool one, I should say!) and not going to the concert means more money to spend on dresses :)

I am particularly eyeing these (for parties and night outs, right?):

check it out here :)

hi reina,
-tSin

Do You Wanna Come Over and Kill Some Time?

To be lost in the forest, to be caught adrift
You've been trying to reach me, you bought me a book
~Bloc Party, This Modern Love

08.29.09 | 01:34:08 | august rush

I know my birthday was already a few months back and Christmas is still going to be some good three or four months from today, but I think Santa knew I've been a really good kid cuz somebody The Boyfriend just said in the middle of nowhere as we were walking hand in hand that he was going to buy me a new pair of shoes/sandals. And the conversation:

ME: Serious?!
HE: Yes.
ME: Why?
HE: Because I just want to.
ME: Really?
HE: Yeah. I think I promised you a while back that I was gonna get you some new shoes and it's been a long time ago... I guess it's time.
ME: Hmmm... I thought it was a bag.
HE: That's another thing. Come on, let's go get you new shoes.
ME: *wide smile* OK!

Haha! I swear I didn't remember him promising me anything about a new pair of shoes, but I guess he really wanted to get me a present though. :D Well just in time though, because my favorite step-on (the one that I was actually wearing when we bought the new shoes) already gave in to age. But I think a little sewing can still fix it! I just love those step-ons that no matter how old they look I still would want to wear them.

Aren't they lovely? Yup! They are some cute wedgish (is there such a word, really?) step-on! Thanks to The Boyfriend for being so thoughtful, thoughtful, thoughtful! *kisses* Please don't mind my cracked toes, I know they're ugly! I'll be beautifying them by the weekend - I PROMISE! Prolly gonna paint them red, too! RED! Just reminded me... The Boyfriend was really eyeing this red flats with diamonds on the straps yesterday and I could feel that he really wanted those flats for me, but I don't feel comfortable wearing them so I told him I couldn't take those although I also kind of fancy the design and the color (red)... I just couldn't. It was too expensive to be bought and not worn at all. It did take me about half an hour and I had to try on some five pairs before I finally decided to take this from PeopleRPeople - the old step-on was bought from the same store, too!

The Boyfriend has been really nice to me these days and I love it. Haha! He even treated me to Shanghai Bay so that I could satisfy my craving for Sweet and Sour pork and I did have my fill - I was instantly a happy kid! Actually, I think I even ate a little way too much cuz I was almost out of breath the time I finished eating - no I didn't eat like a glutton! I ate with grace and a pace like a French princess. I even had a fresh Buko juice to finish up and it was all so refreshing really! The walk and hunt for the sandals (and a polo-shirt for The Boyfriend) afterwards were necessary to burn the calories that we've taken. Seriously, if I live a life like this every single day how would I ever, ever lose any weight at all?! Help help help! I need to lose weight and I'm so so so dead serious about that! Yes, a gym grant would surely work and I would definitely accept without further ado! Hahaha! That's how desperate I am and I guess you could tell by the previous entries - I couldn't help complaining about the weight gain! Who's fault is this? MINE? Uh...

Ok. Ok. It's the weekend finally and there are some movies out in the cinema to be watched. Public Enemies, anyone? Will that be worth watching in the theatres or is just good for some Saturday dvd-marathon kind of stuff? Hmmmm... What I really want to do this weekend is go to the airport and if only I have the money to splurge I'd choose a random city (probably, the cheapest one!) to fly to and spend the weekend there! Surprise! I think that should be every person's dream and I think I should go and add that to "THE THINGS I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE LIST". =)

I could just imagine myself standing infront of this with my backpack on wondering where I'd be going. *sigh* Oh well, finally, it's the weekend. Have fun lushes! :)

By the way, I won't be seeing the Doctor later! Yay! He's flying out of town and hasn't confirmed our next meeting just yet! I love delaying tactics! :D

hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend,

-tSin

Hot Hot! :)

Yes yes! This kid definitely deserves her own space and entry here in my blog because she just took my heart completely with her! After my friend JC posted this link on his FB, I just couldnt' stop watching it! She sooo reminds me of my niece Ashley -- I miss her! I guess I will just have to watch this video so I won't miss her very much! source. Have a good laugh and enjoy! I'm sure you are going to love her, too! Btw, she's just 4 yo!

the irony,

-tSin

Tragic a'la madness and concrete Coca Cola execution.

What's the latest way that a man can die
Screaming hallelujah?
~Green Day, The Static Age

08.28.09 | 02:34: 24 | what kluges can tell you

It is somewhat depressing how I've seriously gained weight and gone wider down the hip bones. And as though the fact that I have bloated is not traumatizing enough both my mum and pop couldn't keep themselves from reminding me how fat chubby I have become. Last weekend I went to this party of an old high school friend and all the people there have noticed that I have gained about 10 lbs from the last time they saw me (I swear it's just my hips getting wider by the second, really!).And how I want to pierce their eyes everytime it hovers on my bloating stomach! Ugh. I seriously need to lose weight, but I can't seem to stop eating! Is this some eating disorder of some sort or something? Just when I finally got myself hooked to Coke Zero I am now forced to give it up because no matter how convincing it may sound that it's really zero calorie or what not... it's still soda and it's still not going to help me in losing weight. Later on, I would have to give up on the chips and dessert and some other food... or I might just give up eating! As though eating healthy could help me up with my savings. Never really. Eating healthy is just very expensive - like super! It is not easy to live the healthy way, but I want to roam the streets of the world for a longer time so I will have to sacrifice and spend whatever cash is left of me to eating healthy. Btw, The Boyfriend couldn't help staring at my once-triangle-now-round-face-according-to-him.

Anyhooser too much about me rambling about my very depressing weight gain... On a lighter note, last weekend Officemates and I went to Tabuelan for the quarterly (seems like) team building with a budget provided by the company of course! Not much but enough to get us a room for a night and an overflowing supply of food! And these are just some of it!

grilled pork belly and fish!
put on the garnishing for the pork belly
and made it more colorful and inviting! heheh...

the couple cooks!
my dearest friend Julie
finally found the love of her life (hopefully!:D)

There's nothing very special about the place really, but it does give you that peaceful provincial feeling which you can enjoy and savor while thinking forgetting for a day or two the busy city life. I am also not a very big fan of the northern shores so my judgement might be a little biased here. Here are a few photos of the place and you can see for yourself ;)

there's the beach and look at those clouds
forming the gates to heaven! :D

the shoreline in the morning...
the water gets really far during low tide
and it doesn't come back to shore until about 10 in the morning
seems like a regular thing.

sadly, the sunrise doesn't show up
in this part of the world... it does look gloomy
but it's not!

And yes, no photos of the sunset again because... I think you already might have an idea. Oh well, after a few good shots of heart-warming and head-thudding liquor I passed out with an excuse to go to the room to have my camera battery charged! I was later found sprawled like a dead oil on the bed with my swim wear on! Haha! Good thing they were all too tired to take a picture of me sleeping! I slept for about four hours and woke up just before dinner got served. It's crazy how I can no longer vividly remember what we did or ate for dinner that night... I was all too groggy! Even the shower didn't wake me up completely at all!

The next day we walked around the place and honestly, I thought I would be able to run but due to my laziness I let my chance slip away! Phew! Good thing though that we played the classic game of patintero once everybody was up. It was pretty exhausting but all worth it cuz we scored with a proud one and a zero to our dearest opponents! *grins*

Sweating our hearts out in action! :)

After a couple of rounds we had to end the game because all of us were already gasping for breath and air and oxygen and we were all very hungry - we only had a sip of Milo before we went on for the game. Corned beef and egg omelettes were served for breakfast! And then our number one time-eater followed. KARAOKE until our company service came to fetch us to bring us back to the city and reality.

Sure, it was a short vacation - not even a vacation really - but it did give us some time to unwind and forget our busy corporate lives for twenty-four hours! :D See all of our photos here and enjoy! This little kid right here also made our team building really fun with her cuteness!

this is Juno's daughter Xierra
the newest contractual member of the Dispatch team.
haha! kidding! isn't she oh-so-adorable?!

And this is me right here saying goodbye to Coke Zero... for real.


goodbye Coke Zero, good-bye,

-tSin

And When I Write.

Let the meaning slip away

Lost my faith in another day,

Self deprication seems okay,

I never thought I'd make it anyway

~Less Than Jake, The Science of Selling Yourself Short

08.22.09 | 07:20:33 | i'm my own worst enemy

So I was cleaning up my mailbox and stumbled upon some old writings of mine. I should say they were really crazy and very teenag-y. Hahah! Sure, I made that word up. =p Well, being an ugly duckling back then I couldn't help myself from suffering from a hundreds of heartbreaks. And yeah, it's crazier how I never seem to learn my lesson. Oh well, being the curious me? I'd rather really take risks than be stuck in some void and a series of what-if-sessions with myself. Here's a sample of one of the poems I've written when I was heartbroken.

Broken

His lips still fondle my ears,

His laughter still mimics the bluish sky,

His voice rings clear though distantly,

His hands I hold in vain.

My eyes wander through

Searching for that one face I know.

His name I scream so he could hear

But he remains oblivious.

How could I say I accept him?

How could I possibly love him?

I never really know him, only his face,

And the memories have been relinquished.

He lied and that couldn’t be denied.

He left and now I am bereft.

I know that I could never find again

The man who I once loved so much

I wonder who that was for. Haha! I swear, I couldn't really remember anymore. I guess that's because I've fallen in and out of love sooo many times in the past I've lost count of all the men whom I have passed by! *sniggers* One weird trivia about me: I could hardly write at all when I am very happy or when I'm really in love. And if you ask me why... err - I am so sorry. I really don't know why! :o

And here's another poem that I've found... (yet another crazy one!)

No one understands the language I use.

No one can decipher the codes that I give.

Interpretation of my works would only mean insult.

Misconception of it would be a curse to him who reads it.

He deems understanding, but he really doesn’t.

He triumphs over symbols inferred, but aware not of his error.

Many had failed and no one has yet succeed

To give the meaning to such works that even I cannot recognize.

The epithet could make you lose your interest.

The content could baffle your confounded mind.

The whole of it can make you lose your sanity.

But you will not be able to forget nor remember any of it.

For when I write, I write it for no one.

And when I write, I write it because of someone.

For when my desire to write overflows

I write - and write it for you to read.

Nobody knows why the milieu of my verses is such.

Nobody knows just why it’s there.

Remember how you laughed until you cried?

It was because you just felt like doing so.

Just like when I write and write it for no one.

Some are for and some are for not.

I write because I feel my pen grip the insides of my palm.

I write because I felt like doing so.

And when I write you’ll be frustrated.

And when I write you’ll swear to hate me.

And when I write you’ll never know

That the poem I wrote was for no one, but you.

That should be it for now. I've got to head home and get some sleep because I am going to have a very busy weekend! Busy as it was laid back the last. Btw, I'm gonna post some photos of my weekend vacay in Bohol here in my next entry. I promise! :D

I could be an expert on co-dependency,

~tSin