Turn It Off

We're taking shortcuts and false solutions

Just to come out the hero.

~Paramore, Turn It Off

03.27.10 | 14:29:23 | the worst part

I don't think I can ever be forgiven! I've been M.I.A waaaaay too long it's sickening to even think about! Since 2010 came I've never even posted anything that's worth reading or coming back for! Well, I think one of the reasons could be... I can't post blogs at the office anymore :( They're so strict there already, but what can I do huh? I am just a slave awaiting to arise... to dethrone the masters and mistresses. Well, that sounds sort of... evilish.

Moving forward, as a come backer post... let me fill you in with some updates of the past, what, three months? A couple of weeks ago I legally turned twelve dozen! I still dread giving out my real age! I don't know! I feel old and crippled to still be here right where I am at this age! Back in high school, I imagined myself to be successful and rich and everything else nice (only) at the age past 20, yet here I am. Incarcerated by my own laziness, fueled stagnant by procrastination -- I suddenly felt like a loser. Prolly, I could've gone to med or law school if I was ambitious enough, but then I am mostly contented of the average and the mediocre. I know, that's sad. Sometimes, I dream of waking up the next day in a mansion, on a luxurious bed with a couple of maids to attend to my every whim and need just as I dreamed before of getting perfect grades without studying a bit. Yes, my imagination is unfortunately demented, defective, whatsoever. Ho-hum. And all I can do is just take a deep breath and sigh and wish that I could find a genie in a bottle who could grant me even just one wish then I would wish that all my wishes would come true! Hahah!

*Sighs*

My mind is racing fast. Thinking about a lot of things again: Disappointed in most and angered in some. I am torn between expressing such anguish and just forgetting about them and posting some of my pictures from the Sinulog festival which jump-started the year up to the recent trip in Manila with The Boyfriend which by the way was really fun and exciting yet excruciatingly painful that even now my feet and legs are still a bit weak from all the walkings we've done in the city. I'm not complaining for it was all worth it! I just wish that I could've been more prepared - that's it.

I believe I would have to find another time to provide you with more updates. As for now I will have to go back to the sack and indulge myself in reading. I haven't done so for a long time! Even longer than the time that I haven't written anything!

I need a blackberry,

-tSin