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my eyes

burn with unshed tears

my body is weak

from so many silent years

~Ben Harper, More Than Sorry

10.18.09 | 09:40:08 | crying over happy days

Sometimes, I don't know if I'm too good or too bad.

I just know that most of the time I can get too inconsiderate and unreasonable...

Oftentimes, I am passive.

Probably because I hate dramas for sure and the fact that stating my opinion or saying anything at all could only lead into something else... something more unpleasant and stressing.

I just want to live the good life.

Less drama.

Less arguments.

Less worries.

More on appreciating the things that I have in life... yes, even the little things.

So I'd rather lose my things than sever relationships with my friends.

I'd rather live alone than hurt people and have eternal enemies.

I would never want to die holding a grudge on anyone or hating anyone at all.

Sure, I do get pissed now and then by rude, know-it-all people who acts as though they own the world and that they are the only person in the planet...

But that's it.

I usually just forget about those kinds of people or shitty things that happen.

A good sleep and ice cream and a couple hours of silence is good enough to make me feel better.

I guess I've put into mind that in this life we really couldn't get away with the shittiness...

Life is never fair so we might as well deal with it.

Oh how I wish that I could just runaway from this all and live alone somewhere peaceful.

But I think that would be too selfish, huh?

Ugh. It's just that sometimes I think that these people whom I love and who loves me are better off without me.

I know that's such a crazy belief or thought or what not, I just couldn't help feeling that way. :(

I have my own flaws and I've got some issues with myself that I have to resolve.

Otherwise... I will never be able to move on.

Like never.

I will forever think that I am no good.

*sighs*

This should be all for now.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt."

step into the morning and disappear,

-tSin