Are You Drugs?

Lights, camera,
TRANSACTION!
~Incubus, Talk Shows On Mute

11.05.09 | 05:24:44 | welcome to the new de ja vu

Last Sunday, I started to write something like this...

Today is All Saints day. Everyone else is busy and probably on their way to the cemetery to visit their loved ones who have gone ahead.

Today is my ex-boyfriend's birthday. Penn Badgley happy birthday! I love you!

...but then dearest Firefox died on me or not really died but well it was acting up pretty crazily and with the amount of patience that I have I decided I should just blog some other time. I was also vehemently sick at the time with runny nose and... enough said. So here I am trying to make up to you guys once again for the lost times. Ugh. How many times do I have to apologize for my laziness huh? I don't have reasons... just excuses, it's pathetic. Although I did manage to rant a little yesterday or a couple of days ago or I'm not really sure. Haha! And if you want to know what I whined about... you can read it HERE. Don't blame me if you read it... I know! It's sooo drama-ish. Yes, you can puke. I wouldn't mind.

So... as you may have already noticed most of my previous blogs were just really quick updates and I didn't realize it much as now, but I'm thankful to whoever invented Twitter. With Twitter no idea is ever lost as long as I've got it up and running... it's really wonderful to just be blabbering about anything and not caring much who reads it or not. I don't even get much RTs or replies, but I really don't mind at all cuz I just want to tweet. It's an amazing mind and heart detoxifier. Today I am officially in love with Twitter... it has become part of my happiness. So screw to those people who tries to take my happiness away. :( Why would they want to do that? That's sooooo cruel, isn't it? Going back... I'm sorry I'm losing track... Well, yeah, it's been a really busy couple of weeks. Work stuff. And then there's school (gawd! I can't believe I'm back to school!). Although school isn't really going to start prolly until next week, as of date they're still wasting our time making us go to school with nothing to do, as in NOTHING. I've also had some issues I needed to deal with and I've been sick during the weekend (as I've already mentioned ;)). *sighs* I'm still on the path of recovery now - not totally healed just yet. Every now and then I get really dizzy and the world seems to turn and I remain on the ground... isn't that weird?

Ho-hum. Sometimes, I feel like I'm Kristin Cavallari from that MTV series Laguna Bay Beach. It's like everywhere I go follows drama. Yes, I'd like to puke please. Well, it's like I never get well from being sick. Ok. I get better for a week and then after a couple of days I'm sick with something else again. Then my faulty-wired brain races and races and races... I get lost and then found. It's an endless vicious cycle. =( I wonder when that will ever stop huh? Or will that ever stop? Who knows? Sometimes, I feel like I hold back too much inside... anger (mostly), love, my ability to do something extraordinarily (cuz f*ck I must admit I can get too lazy sometimes!) and there are words which I could never bring myself to verbalize. I say that I have moved on from past experiences worth forgetting, but I often find myself digging into them and making them part of the present when I'm not supposed to anymore. Sometimes, I like to pretend I'm someone else and that I am somewhere else in another time. It's just easier that way. Right? But then yes... I've got a reality and a present, a now to face. I wish I am braver. *sighs*

You're probably bored already with all of my blabber of gobbledygook-iness. Sorry. A little distraction might help... pictures anyone? Yes? Ok. These are quite past-tense already, but I wouldn't mind sharing. Here are some photos from our team outing a couple of weekends ago at the southern tip of the province, Boljo-on.

~the group picture, inevitable.
one just can't leave an outing without this! =)

~our very cute guest, Juno's daughter Xierra
well, looking at the photos it seemed like it was Xierra's day-out
and we were merely chaperon

~our first time guest Michelle (left)
she looks really pretty here, doesn't she?

~another first time guests, Jacel and Mike

~and of course William (a.k.a TLJ or True Love ni Julie hihi)

And here are my favorite shots:


~this can surely pass for an advertisement photo! =)

~spells F.U.N :D

~a captured smile

~spooky house I must say.
in coordination with the spooky place. brh!
i like how it looks surreal.

~and yes, my favorite picture of myself. ;p

Well, that made me forget a bit. ;) Ahhh... thanks for the happy times worth reminiscing. And I guess I've got to bid goodbye for now. I'm really not feeling any better in all honesty. Plus my nose is currently suffering the aftermath of tortured runny nose... it's so gross. Hmpft. Ok. Enough. I could go on and on with the complaining.


still and transfixed,

-tSin