My New Love: HOLLYWOODCRUSH.MTV.COM

despite the fact that my head is throbbing like mad because of lack of sleep and the seemingly never-ending calls coming... I can't help feeling SMITTEN. You would probably think I'm crazy for feeling such cuz the reason for my being SMITTEN is this:

During a trip to Thailand, Penn took cooking classes and learned how to whip up some sexy and exotic Thai dishes, saying they’re “spicy and quick and easy to make—and a rare thing to cook for a woman.”

“I think pineapple is very sexy,” Penn explained, “It reminds me of bikinis and the beach.” (Penn on his favorite recipe: Yellow Curry with Pineapple)

read more.

Awww... my heart just melt I swear! I feel soooo SMITTEN to the highest level! Haha! As if! Well, I can dream of Penn Badgley as much as I want to after all it's only in dreams that I could ever have him and dreaming is just definitely for free. So please let me keep my fantasies of Penn. :p But of course, I won't exchange The Boyfriend ever. Yes, not even... Penn.

Penn = Fantasy. The Boyfriend = Reality. HAPPINESS!

Don't I sound like a kid there? Yes, a kid going gaga over Johnny Bravo. Eek!

I haven't watched Episode 9, They Shoot Humphrey's, Don't They, of GGX yet and I really couldn't wait at all cuz there's just a lot, as in a LOOOTTT, to look forward to! For one, there will be an episode with Lady Gaga, The Last Days of Disco Stick. And then there's the intriguing "THREESOME" episode, I'm not sure if that's part of episode 10... but I'm pretty sure it's something really worth waiting for! We'll see who will be despised this time and who will be part of the threesome!

MORE READS ON MY EX-LOVER, PENN BADGLEY, HERE!!! =)

That should be it for now. I just needed some breather and good I had it. Thanksss hollywoodcrush.mtv.com! You just made my day today!

back to business,

-tSin

Then Won't You Tell Me.

Choirs will be singing Silent Night

Those Christmas carols by candlelight
~Jon Bon Jovi, Please Come Home for Christmas

11.10.09 | 02:00:08 | the things that make us cry

Are usually the same things that make us happy.

Oh well! It is official! I am back to school for good and working at the same time. Whew! And for the past days I've done nothing but ask God to give me strength so I can conquer this battle unscathed or prolly a little scratch won't hurt... some lessons that would be enough to teach me something I can live with for forever and teach to my grand grand grand kids when the time comes! *sigh* It feels good to be back to school and fidgeting over school works and professors although I haven't really met all of them yet. Boy! am I excited?! Not really. I am very happy though because I've got one subject under my favoritest teacher of all, Miss D. =) I'm just sooo happy to have seen her again I didn't mind to have waited for an hour at all! She's just really the best Psychology teacher in our school - EVER! So... I guess that gives me enough reason to be motivated and driven to go to school even though I only get to meet her every Saturday, hehe.

In case you didn't notice, I've put up a Christmas countdown clock on my site (right there on the side =)). The time of giving is really on its way now and I just couldn't help feeling giddy about it! It's finally going to be Christmas time and I don't care if I'm gonna be broke... I'm already broke anyway! Hahah! What's more is that people have started putting up the Christmas decors and the lights! Ahhh! They're amazing! Sometimes I can even smell Christmas and I love it! That Snow Man (from photo above!) is hanging on a post just right in front of me with snowflakes hovering over it. It's just sooo Christmassy! I feel like a child seeing the decorations and all. It lifts out my stressfulness.

And then Starbucks Christmas flavors are also back! I'm not really sure if that's how Starbs call it but I wanna call it that, hehe. My fave in particular is the Toffee Nut frap, giving emphasis on the word cuz I really am not a drinker of the hot ones especially hot coffee. Here's a photo of my cup from last Sunday's... and yes, that's a latte cup. My mistake. Well... I guess I was too groggy to have argued with the barista that I had to let it go. Good thing though that I didn't go for a grande otherwise I might have choked myself from palpitating! I know it is ironic how I can love Starbs sooo much but not really coffee. Well... even though Starbs is mostly about coffee their pastries are also very good and so are their other beverages =)


Yet again, they've misspelled my name! Ugh! And they have never ever spelled that right. Hmpft. By the way, the new Starbs Planner for 2010 is already up for grabs! I've already got the sticker stuff although I only got one sticker as of date. Sheesh. I hope I can get one this time! Cuz last year they said the planner was really bad I was discouraged to collect the stickers. The planner for next year doesn't look really really good as in super duper beautifully sophisticated or whatever, but it's cute. Haha! So we'll see if I'll be getting one! =)

happy,

-tSin

Are You Drugs?

Lights, camera,
TRANSACTION!
~Incubus, Talk Shows On Mute

11.05.09 | 05:24:44 | welcome to the new de ja vu

Last Sunday, I started to write something like this...

Today is All Saints day. Everyone else is busy and probably on their way to the cemetery to visit their loved ones who have gone ahead.

Today is my ex-boyfriend's birthday. Penn Badgley happy birthday! I love you!

...but then dearest Firefox died on me or not really died but well it was acting up pretty crazily and with the amount of patience that I have I decided I should just blog some other time. I was also vehemently sick at the time with runny nose and... enough said. So here I am trying to make up to you guys once again for the lost times. Ugh. How many times do I have to apologize for my laziness huh? I don't have reasons... just excuses, it's pathetic. Although I did manage to rant a little yesterday or a couple of days ago or I'm not really sure. Haha! And if you want to know what I whined about... you can read it HERE. Don't blame me if you read it... I know! It's sooo drama-ish. Yes, you can puke. I wouldn't mind.

So... as you may have already noticed most of my previous blogs were just really quick updates and I didn't realize it much as now, but I'm thankful to whoever invented Twitter. With Twitter no idea is ever lost as long as I've got it up and running... it's really wonderful to just be blabbering about anything and not caring much who reads it or not. I don't even get much RTs or replies, but I really don't mind at all cuz I just want to tweet. It's an amazing mind and heart detoxifier. Today I am officially in love with Twitter... it has become part of my happiness. So screw to those people who tries to take my happiness away. :( Why would they want to do that? That's sooooo cruel, isn't it? Going back... I'm sorry I'm losing track... Well, yeah, it's been a really busy couple of weeks. Work stuff. And then there's school (gawd! I can't believe I'm back to school!). Although school isn't really going to start prolly until next week, as of date they're still wasting our time making us go to school with nothing to do, as in NOTHING. I've also had some issues I needed to deal with and I've been sick during the weekend (as I've already mentioned ;)). *sighs* I'm still on the path of recovery now - not totally healed just yet. Every now and then I get really dizzy and the world seems to turn and I remain on the ground... isn't that weird?

Ho-hum. Sometimes, I feel like I'm Kristin Cavallari from that MTV series Laguna Bay Beach. It's like everywhere I go follows drama. Yes, I'd like to puke please. Well, it's like I never get well from being sick. Ok. I get better for a week and then after a couple of days I'm sick with something else again. Then my faulty-wired brain races and races and races... I get lost and then found. It's an endless vicious cycle. =( I wonder when that will ever stop huh? Or will that ever stop? Who knows? Sometimes, I feel like I hold back too much inside... anger (mostly), love, my ability to do something extraordinarily (cuz f*ck I must admit I can get too lazy sometimes!) and there are words which I could never bring myself to verbalize. I say that I have moved on from past experiences worth forgetting, but I often find myself digging into them and making them part of the present when I'm not supposed to anymore. Sometimes, I like to pretend I'm someone else and that I am somewhere else in another time. It's just easier that way. Right? But then yes... I've got a reality and a present, a now to face. I wish I am braver. *sighs*

You're probably bored already with all of my blabber of gobbledygook-iness. Sorry. A little distraction might help... pictures anyone? Yes? Ok. These are quite past-tense already, but I wouldn't mind sharing. Here are some photos from our team outing a couple of weekends ago at the southern tip of the province, Boljo-on.

~the group picture, inevitable.
one just can't leave an outing without this! =)

~our very cute guest, Juno's daughter Xierra
well, looking at the photos it seemed like it was Xierra's day-out
and we were merely chaperon

~our first time guest Michelle (left)
she looks really pretty here, doesn't she?

~another first time guests, Jacel and Mike

~and of course William (a.k.a TLJ or True Love ni Julie hihi)

And here are my favorite shots:


~this can surely pass for an advertisement photo! =)

~spells F.U.N :D

~a captured smile

~spooky house I must say.
in coordination with the spooky place. brh!
i like how it looks surreal.

~and yes, my favorite picture of myself. ;p

Well, that made me forget a bit. ;) Ahhh... thanks for the happy times worth reminiscing. And I guess I've got to bid goodbye for now. I'm really not feeling any better in all honesty. Plus my nose is currently suffering the aftermath of tortured runny nose... it's so gross. Hmpft. Ok. Enough. I could go on and on with the complaining.


still and transfixed,

-tSin

"I've Got to Get You Home... You Haven't Been Home For Awhile."

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in, cuz I've always wanted this!
~Paramore, Looking Up

10.28.09 | 12:59:13 | your name

OH! I don't know where to start, really. I just have too much in my mind. I am excited and happy and anxious because a lot has been going on in my life for days now -- both good and bad. And I'm not sure if it's ever going to stop... I don't even know if I want it to stop. Sometimes the thrill that I often get myself into just keeps me alive, making my life more meaningful and worth living for and no I'm definitely not talking about scoring infidelities or whatever you want to think that could be worse than that. I'm still as good as I am, I swear. I'm almost sure dear old Santa will really let me get what I want this Christmas.

There you go... just a really cute little update. Some note to let you know that I am still alive. ;) Later on I would be posting some more and some photos, too! I am quite excited! As for now... I will have to go because I feel like I am not making any sense at all. Til later then everyone! :-*


off to lalaland,

-tSin

--BREAK--

yes.

another quick post.

another apology for days with empty entries... i really am sorry!

it's been a crazy hectic week.

stressful in fact, but i'd rather not think it is!

cuz it's just going to stress me more for sure... might probably depress me, too.

anyway, i'm hoping that i wouldn't be too busy at all by next week

and i hope that i would be able to getaway... even just for a while.

there are plans for an out-of-town event this weekend...

and another one on tuesday.

we will see.

hmmm... tiresome days really suck, don't they?

right now...

i wanna

wanna, wanna, wanna

WANT TO seriously

have my own house or at least my own room

where i can cry my heart out without worrying

that somebody might see my pathetic shedding of tears.

i'm just tired of holding back... anything.

i want to break free.

i want to be able to express whatever i feel at the right moment to the right person

without fear...

*sighs*

i hate tiring days.

i hate feeling tired.

uh... i wanna zZzleeep.

the only exception,

-tSin