Happy National Heroes Day

Guess it's too bad,
that everything we have is taken away.
~Story of the Year, And The Hero Will Drown

23:11:51 | 08.31.09 | trying to convince myself

The day is about to end and minutes from now it will finally be September! Yaay! I can smell... Christmas! :D I'm just dropping by to leave a very short blog to commemorate the country's "National Heroes Day". Well, actually, it was really yesterday but then the President called this day off for the whole country to celebrate and have another loong weekend. Lucky kids. As for us who works even on holidays... Lucky, too! Cuz we get paid double! HAHA!

I'm not really a hero-fan kind of person, but at least I do know that Jose Rizal doesn't look like Emilio Aguinaldo for crying out loud. I was watching the news earlier this evening and there were some people who were rallying somewhere in the capital city of the country and they were holding or wearing masks of some of the National Heroes. One was asked if she knew who the hero was and she was like: "Um... Emilio Aguinaldo? Ewan... Hindi ko alam, eh!" (TRANSLATION: "Um... Emilio Aguinaldo? I don't know!") Seriously?! Is Emilio Aguinaldo even a national hero?! And what the hell were they thinking rallying up not even knowing what they are actually rallying for? I think our heroes deserve a better unpaid recognition. *sigh*

And if you ask me, who my favorite hero is... I honestly don't have a favorite hero. All of them have been great in bringing back our freedom and I'm really thankful for their bravery - but sadly, I can't seem to choose a favorite. I swear, while I was on the jeepney on my way to the office, I was running through all the heroes that I could remember, but none of them would enter my mind or touch my heart as to say. So, it could be all of them or none at all. Hmm... if I do not like any hero at all does that make me an ungrateful citizen of this country? Tell me.

half hour and losing,

-tSin

Do You Wanna Come Over and Kill Some Time?

To be lost in the forest, to be caught adrift
You've been trying to reach me, you bought me a book
~Bloc Party, This Modern Love

08.29.09 | 01:34:08 | august rush

I know my birthday was already a few months back and Christmas is still going to be some good three or four months from today, but I think Santa knew I've been a really good kid cuz somebody The Boyfriend just said in the middle of nowhere as we were walking hand in hand that he was going to buy me a new pair of shoes/sandals. And the conversation:

ME: Serious?!
HE: Yes.
ME: Why?
HE: Because I just want to.
ME: Really?
HE: Yeah. I think I promised you a while back that I was gonna get you some new shoes and it's been a long time ago... I guess it's time.
ME: Hmmm... I thought it was a bag.
HE: That's another thing. Come on, let's go get you new shoes.
ME: *wide smile* OK!

Haha! I swear I didn't remember him promising me anything about a new pair of shoes, but I guess he really wanted to get me a present though. :D Well just in time though, because my favorite step-on (the one that I was actually wearing when we bought the new shoes) already gave in to age. But I think a little sewing can still fix it! I just love those step-ons that no matter how old they look I still would want to wear them.

Aren't they lovely? Yup! They are some cute wedgish (is there such a word, really?) step-on! Thanks to The Boyfriend for being so thoughtful, thoughtful, thoughtful! *kisses* Please don't mind my cracked toes, I know they're ugly! I'll be beautifying them by the weekend - I PROMISE! Prolly gonna paint them red, too! RED! Just reminded me... The Boyfriend was really eyeing this red flats with diamonds on the straps yesterday and I could feel that he really wanted those flats for me, but I don't feel comfortable wearing them so I told him I couldn't take those although I also kind of fancy the design and the color (red)... I just couldn't. It was too expensive to be bought and not worn at all. It did take me about half an hour and I had to try on some five pairs before I finally decided to take this from PeopleRPeople - the old step-on was bought from the same store, too!

The Boyfriend has been really nice to me these days and I love it. Haha! He even treated me to Shanghai Bay so that I could satisfy my craving for Sweet and Sour pork and I did have my fill - I was instantly a happy kid! Actually, I think I even ate a little way too much cuz I was almost out of breath the time I finished eating - no I didn't eat like a glutton! I ate with grace and a pace like a French princess. I even had a fresh Buko juice to finish up and it was all so refreshing really! The walk and hunt for the sandals (and a polo-shirt for The Boyfriend) afterwards were necessary to burn the calories that we've taken. Seriously, if I live a life like this every single day how would I ever, ever lose any weight at all?! Help help help! I need to lose weight and I'm so so so dead serious about that! Yes, a gym grant would surely work and I would definitely accept without further ado! Hahaha! That's how desperate I am and I guess you could tell by the previous entries - I couldn't help complaining about the weight gain! Who's fault is this? MINE? Uh...

Ok. Ok. It's the weekend finally and there are some movies out in the cinema to be watched. Public Enemies, anyone? Will that be worth watching in the theatres or is just good for some Saturday dvd-marathon kind of stuff? Hmmmm... What I really want to do this weekend is go to the airport and if only I have the money to splurge I'd choose a random city (probably, the cheapest one!) to fly to and spend the weekend there! Surprise! I think that should be every person's dream and I think I should go and add that to "THE THINGS I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE LIST". =)

I could just imagine myself standing infront of this with my backpack on wondering where I'd be going. *sigh* Oh well, finally, it's the weekend. Have fun lushes! :)

By the way, I won't be seeing the Doctor later! Yay! He's flying out of town and hasn't confirmed our next meeting just yet! I love delaying tactics! :D

hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend,

-tSin

Hot Hot! :)

Yes yes! This kid definitely deserves her own space and entry here in my blog because she just took my heart completely with her! After my friend JC posted this link on his FB, I just couldnt' stop watching it! She sooo reminds me of my niece Ashley -- I miss her! I guess I will just have to watch this video so I won't miss her very much! source. Have a good laugh and enjoy! I'm sure you are going to love her, too! Btw, she's just 4 yo!

the irony,

-tSin

Tragic a'la madness and concrete Coca Cola execution.

What's the latest way that a man can die
Screaming hallelujah?
~Green Day, The Static Age

08.28.09 | 02:34: 24 | what kluges can tell you

It is somewhat depressing how I've seriously gained weight and gone wider down the hip bones. And as though the fact that I have bloated is not traumatizing enough both my mum and pop couldn't keep themselves from reminding me how fat chubby I have become. Last weekend I went to this party of an old high school friend and all the people there have noticed that I have gained about 10 lbs from the last time they saw me (I swear it's just my hips getting wider by the second, really!).And how I want to pierce their eyes everytime it hovers on my bloating stomach! Ugh. I seriously need to lose weight, but I can't seem to stop eating! Is this some eating disorder of some sort or something? Just when I finally got myself hooked to Coke Zero I am now forced to give it up because no matter how convincing it may sound that it's really zero calorie or what not... it's still soda and it's still not going to help me in losing weight. Later on, I would have to give up on the chips and dessert and some other food... or I might just give up eating! As though eating healthy could help me up with my savings. Never really. Eating healthy is just very expensive - like super! It is not easy to live the healthy way, but I want to roam the streets of the world for a longer time so I will have to sacrifice and spend whatever cash is left of me to eating healthy. Btw, The Boyfriend couldn't help staring at my once-triangle-now-round-face-according-to-him.

Anyhooser too much about me rambling about my very depressing weight gain... On a lighter note, last weekend Officemates and I went to Tabuelan for the quarterly (seems like) team building with a budget provided by the company of course! Not much but enough to get us a room for a night and an overflowing supply of food! And these are just some of it!

grilled pork belly and fish!
put on the garnishing for the pork belly
and made it more colorful and inviting! heheh...

the couple cooks!
my dearest friend Julie
finally found the love of her life (hopefully!:D)

There's nothing very special about the place really, but it does give you that peaceful provincial feeling which you can enjoy and savor while thinking forgetting for a day or two the busy city life. I am also not a very big fan of the northern shores so my judgement might be a little biased here. Here are a few photos of the place and you can see for yourself ;)

there's the beach and look at those clouds
forming the gates to heaven! :D

the shoreline in the morning...
the water gets really far during low tide
and it doesn't come back to shore until about 10 in the morning
seems like a regular thing.

sadly, the sunrise doesn't show up
in this part of the world... it does look gloomy
but it's not!

And yes, no photos of the sunset again because... I think you already might have an idea. Oh well, after a few good shots of heart-warming and head-thudding liquor I passed out with an excuse to go to the room to have my camera battery charged! I was later found sprawled like a dead oil on the bed with my swim wear on! Haha! Good thing they were all too tired to take a picture of me sleeping! I slept for about four hours and woke up just before dinner got served. It's crazy how I can no longer vividly remember what we did or ate for dinner that night... I was all too groggy! Even the shower didn't wake me up completely at all!

The next day we walked around the place and honestly, I thought I would be able to run but due to my laziness I let my chance slip away! Phew! Good thing though that we played the classic game of patintero once everybody was up. It was pretty exhausting but all worth it cuz we scored with a proud one and a zero to our dearest opponents! *grins*

Sweating our hearts out in action! :)

After a couple of rounds we had to end the game because all of us were already gasping for breath and air and oxygen and we were all very hungry - we only had a sip of Milo before we went on for the game. Corned beef and egg omelettes were served for breakfast! And then our number one time-eater followed. KARAOKE until our company service came to fetch us to bring us back to the city and reality.

Sure, it was a short vacation - not even a vacation really - but it did give us some time to unwind and forget our busy corporate lives for twenty-four hours! :D See all of our photos here and enjoy! This little kid right here also made our team building really fun with her cuteness!

this is Juno's daughter Xierra
the newest contractual member of the Dispatch team.
haha! kidding! isn't she oh-so-adorable?!

And this is me right here saying goodbye to Coke Zero... for real.


goodbye Coke Zero, good-bye,

-tSin

The Breakup Song.

You don't know me
And you don't even care
She said you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains
~Augustana, Boston

08.27.09 | 10:10:18 | bitter cuz you're uninvited

Dear Dr W.B.

Hi it's me. Do you remember me? I guess you do. I don't think you are that old to forget just yet and besides it's only been a month and a week since the last time you saw me. You do remember me. I was that girl who sent you an SMS for help with a very big hope that you will be able to revive me. Guess what, Doc? You did revive me. Thank you so much.

So Doc, you're probably wondering why I am writing to you today. It may seem odd really, but I do feel like writing you would be the most appropriate thing to tell everything if not partly the things that I have been keeping from you. Yesterday, The Boyfriend reminded me that we are due to meet you this coming Saturday. I was perplexed. Oh don't get me wrong Doc, it's not that I don't want to see you because I don't like you or you have bad breath or your office seems to be too small for you and your patients... It's just that, honestly with all honesty, I am never comfortable with talking about things that bother me. You're really ok and all and I like you as much as The Boyfriend does and that if only I weren't the patient I'd look forward to every time I'd meet you, but that's just not my case. I find it really awkward to be sitting there in front of you, holding my breath as you'd run to your list of questions to check on me. If you want to know about that guy whom you really think triggered everything that has happened, for the nth time Doc, we're ok. We're good. We're very good friends just like before. As for my dad staying with us, I take back what I said, I'm happy he's back with us. Now we already have fences surrounding our house - thanks to Pop we now have a deep feeling of security and privacy plus I have been gaining weight with all of the yummyness of his cookings. As for my family, they're still the same, I'm still the same with them. I still wake up with my P500 lost from my wallet that's been tucked in safely, I thought, with me. My mom still couldn't help depending on me for some of the financial stuff as though I am a money-mill. My siblings remain to be ungrateful or I'm just probably sleeping too much. I'm not sure, but it doesn't matter as I always tell you because I love them and they mean the world to me that no matter what they do, no matter how many times they break my heart or steal take my money they will still be my family. I still wouldn't exchange them for anything at all. NO. As for my job, there are times that I feel unhappy because I feel like I am in a standstill and I don't understand why. Probably because I've been doing the same thing all over again -- all routine finally losing its magic. Although I am not thinking of finding another job or moving to a different position... I am not satisfied as well of what or where I am now, career-wise. Strange, but I'm too lazy to even move a muscle. It's sad. I am doing every possible way to ignore the thought though and I have been convincing myself crazy that I love my job (which is really true) and that I am enjoying every moment (not really every) of it!

I am also looking forward to going back to school by the opening of the next semester on October or November. I know it's going to add much load to my daily living and I'm not sure if it's going to be a good or bad thing... I think it should be both. Good thing because finally I'd be back to school and will finally finish my course in psychology. Bad because I've been used to be sleeping the whole day mostly after work ever since I came back from my fateful two weeks of medication I don't think I'd be able to stay up for another three or more hours especially with the burning heat. I could just wish for now the acs in the classroom would work full blast to appease me! Otherwise, I'd be running away and I'd be back to being an OSY.

Moving on Doc, I want to assure you that I am now 101% ok. I am back to my old self, I think even better because I am now more in control with my emotions and my reactions to the world and to the people around me. And btw, I have stopped drinking the medicines that you have prescribed me because they make me feel sleepy all of the time. There was even this one time when I was almost tempted to stay home sick again, I seriously needed to cut off the meds. No, I am not trying to prove anything at all Doctor, I just want to be drug-independent and not that there's anything about me that I need to prove anyway. Ok, maybe just a bit. Human pride, Doc. It partly makes us alive. So there. What I am trying to say is that I don't want anymore to have talking sessions with you. I'm really sorry but it's just really awkward and you've started asking me for a PF, you never did before, didn't you? Now, I am curious... what made you do so? And also, I would like to ask you to stop prescribing me the meds already. The yellow one just tastes like rust really and it makes me feel degraded every time I take them. Please Doctor? You've done a very good job on reviving me and I could never thank you enough, but please just release me and make me live normally again. PLEASE!

Nevertheless, I would like to thank you for being soooo, so, so patient with me! For talking to me even though I was very unresponsive to the point of not even recognizing what you were blabbering about. For not charging too much. For being really nice. For believing in me because if you didn't I might already be stuck in the asylum now. For putting "Insomnia" as your diagnosis of me instead of putting there the truth - I know you really are concern of my welfare as well as my career. For comforting my family, The Boyfriend and his family in the times when I couldn't anymore comfort them. For praying for me, I know you really did. I will never ever forget you and I will always remember you to be that man who talked me out of madness not the Doctor who gave me piles of RX for the medication. Yes, it was you and your belief in me that cured me not the medications. Thank you so much Doctor.


in whichever name you'd know me,

-tSin