Go Home.

my eyes

burn with unshed tears

my body is weak

from so many silent years

~Ben Harper, More Than Sorry

10.18.09 | 09:40:08 | crying over happy days

Sometimes, I don't know if I'm too good or too bad.

I just know that most of the time I can get too inconsiderate and unreasonable...

Oftentimes, I am passive.

Probably because I hate dramas for sure and the fact that stating my opinion or saying anything at all could only lead into something else... something more unpleasant and stressing.

I just want to live the good life.

Less drama.

Less arguments.

Less worries.

More on appreciating the things that I have in life... yes, even the little things.

So I'd rather lose my things than sever relationships with my friends.

I'd rather live alone than hurt people and have eternal enemies.

I would never want to die holding a grudge on anyone or hating anyone at all.

Sure, I do get pissed now and then by rude, know-it-all people who acts as though they own the world and that they are the only person in the planet...

But that's it.

I usually just forget about those kinds of people or shitty things that happen.

A good sleep and ice cream and a couple hours of silence is good enough to make me feel better.

I guess I've put into mind that in this life we really couldn't get away with the shittiness...

Life is never fair so we might as well deal with it.

Oh how I wish that I could just runaway from this all and live alone somewhere peaceful.

But I think that would be too selfish, huh?

Ugh. It's just that sometimes I think that these people whom I love and who loves me are better off without me.

I know that's such a crazy belief or thought or what not, I just couldn't help feeling that way. :(

I have my own flaws and I've got some issues with myself that I have to resolve.

Otherwise... I will never be able to move on.

Like never.

I will forever think that I am no good.

*sighs*

This should be all for now.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt."

step into the morning and disappear,

-tSin

PARA-PA-PARA-PA-PARA!

BREATHER.
cuz i terribly need one.
it is such a busy busy buuuussssyyyy week!
and i'm not the one to complain :(

now i have to get back to my work
and get everything done
before the end of the day.
i'm now getting dizzy.

-tSin

Because Tomorrow...

I might not want to write or worst think about this anymore... So please accept my apologies for this second entry - I swear this isn't gobbledygook, no way.

Yessss! It is Gossip Girl Tuesday everyone! And since it's "Happy Columbus" day in the U.S we're not very, very busy today! Excellent! Moving on, I am now wide eyed and überly excited just thinking about GGX and the next epi: RUFUS GETTING MARRIED. And while I await for my own copy or to get it from somewhere else during the week... I am going to post some GGX goodies here! Firstly, I found these young photos of Penn Badgley. Here, let me give you a sneak peak:

~Oh those lips and those eyes... they often remind me of The Boyfriend. ♥__♥


~He looks a bit of gay right there...
And who would've thought he'd turn out
into a SUPER HOTTY?!

~ahh... those eyes!
I just couldn't, couldn't get enough of them
AT ALL!

I swear, even up to now... he's still my one and only silver screen love! Forget about Edward Norton. I'm just so gaga over Penn Badgley! View other photos of him here. :)

BUT I definitely hate this part of GGX Season 3:



I really have nothing against Hilary Duff... I looove Lizzie McGuire. But for her to co-star in GGX and taking my man, Dan Humphrey or Penn Badgley, away from me?! That's more than I can handle. Ugh. Please Dan... get back with Serena. That's better really!

Sheesh. Hilary just go back to wherever you were from. Ok. More of Penn:





This sooo reminds me of Penn's "the-other-Tucker" days. The curlzzz! They're just lovely! And he's just beauuutttiiiffful! I think if I go on blabbering and posting pictures of him... this blog would become infinite! Hahah! So let me post some other photos of some other casts ;)

~Dorota looks exquisitely gorgeous right there,
doesn't she? I'm a big fan of her, too!
Sometimes I wish I have a loving and loyal and pretty
nanny like her! :D

~Serena always, always stands out =)
she will always be my ultimate GGX girl crush.

~my second girl crush ;)
and sometimes, I surely can relate to her.
haha!

~Blair and Chuck really good together - no doubt.
and he looks really hot here, no? :)

~Nate standing beside this car makes him
totally irrelevant! hahahah! am I too rude there?
well, Nate is really cute and handsome and all!
BUT something's just sooo wrong with him.
can somebody tell me what it is exactly?
I WANT THAT CAR --- LIKE SUPER WANT!!!
never mind Nate Archibald! hihi.

and then my favorite photos of the group are as follows:

Ahhh... how I would love to be part of this scene!
The dresses, the shoes, Upper East Side, New York per se!
Ugh. I want to be part of that... world!

So... are you excited to watch GGX, too? OH btw, I've downloaded some songs from the third season. Listen to it! Go! I especially love Lissy Trullie's Ready for the Floor! I la-la-love GGX! Well, second (or not really) to Dexter ;)

x♥xo,

-tSin

The Facts and The Figures They Overwhelm a Stifle

Everything that you thought you knew
So tiny that they blow away like dust
~Just Jack, Embers

10.13.09 | 03:18:46 | we are all embers

Aside from the burning and tormenting pain of toothache and heartbreak... I hate the feeling of being utterly helpless and not being given help when I badly need it. It makes me want to throw a feat to that arrogant somebody who thinks he/she knows everything but wouldn't really want to share everything or at least a bit of what they know just because they are downright and preposterously arrogant and discourteous... even RUDE, actually. Ugh. I can feel the smokes coming out of my nostrils and ears right now. Ugh. My make-up! Heavens! I don't want to elaborate on this subject further because I don't want to cause any commotion in any way. I am, after all, a peace-loving citizen of the world. Yes, that's why sometimes I would rather keep things to myself or blog about them somewhere else than blurt them out into the open and hurt somebody's feelings. Although I easily lose my temper I always see to it that the damages should always be controlled, forgivable, and forgettable... in that way it would be easier for me to face the world again, unscathed even. PLUS! They said the world's gonna end pretty soon so I guess I better stick on the being-good side of myself.

And I say too much about that... once more: I'd rather not elaborate and forget about it. Sh*t do happen all the time and this is just prolly one of those times, unfortunately. Ho-hum. It was Ainie's birthday yesterday (technically, it ended some three hours or so ago - the birthd) and all of us had a blast with all the scrumptious home-cooked meal everybody brought to celebrate her 25th day. I think I helped myself with too much of that sago with a mixture of some fruit cocktails beverage that Ainie brought herself... I am now too dizzy and my tummy is stirred up it's hard to think straight and make sense. Well, I couldn't help it... the taste of it is just too heavenly to say no to! And I am such a sucker for beverages like those - I'd feel deprived and violated if I wouldn't take even a taste of it!

~blame this! this is the culprit!haha!
one of the yummiest criminial in the world =)

~this is Ainie, the birthday girl
she said they'd (as in with the family) already celebrated her birthday in advance on a fishing trip (sooo coool!)
all she did on her birthday was relax and spend it in the parlor! she even had her hair curled!
the curls look good on her, right? :)

That reminds me! December please come already! And my beautiful hair, please oh pretty please cooperate and grooowwww! Cuz come December 31st you should already be bouncing and curly! =) I really couldn't wait at all!

'Nuff about me. I wish the birthday girl, Ainz, good health and a longer life to enjoy life itself and love. For her to be able to share her life with her beautiful husband and kids. I wish you all the best! With your determination, I wouldn't think this as impossible... in time you will have everything that you've ever dreamed of, Ainz! =) I know my wishes are simple but they are heartily felt and wished, fyi.

And the following are our presents for the birthday girl:

~she is very amazed and delighted with these Naruto cupcakes
I haven't eaten my Naruto cupcake just yet
cuz I don't want to destroy the cuteness of it!

~a looklet of herself which Mae Ann edited to make it look like Ainie! :)
and Mae Ann didn't fail to do so. btw, I especially love the frame!

~the balloon that we've recycled
funny thing is it was Ainie who picked this up and gave it
to Juno from outside the doorstep of our part of the building.
and now we're giving it to her as part of the birthday presents!
hihi.

I'll be posting the link to more of the photos later on. Photobucket seems to be kaput as of the moment. :( To sum it up, we had a blast and I'm still full from everything that I have taken in (some, I think I haven't even chewed at all! Kidding!). My nose is acting up as well... I wonder what it's allergic to this time! Grh. Good thing I still have medicines stocked at home for this malady.

the birthday party,

-tSin

P.S.

Food prepared by Julie, Ainie, and cupcakes ordered by Juno and Lois. =)
Photo credits to: Juno and Mae Ann

Vote for Me! =)

for the LUDIC FUR CONTEST!!! =)

It's like a spur-of-the-moment-me-deciding-that-I-should-join-this-contest. For short: NOTHING REALLY SERIOUS =) This is a contest that one of my current addictions is holding and I was actually influenced by my friend Teenee to join and make my own entry. So here I am and here's my entry:

this model is just so so so lovely! i ♥ her! :)

isn't that fur stuff cool? :D

and the boots are especially BEE-YOO-TIII-FUUULLL!

i love the pink tights, too!

Please vote for me! All you need to do is go to this site and view my entry and just click on the ♥ icon to like my entry. And voila! You're on your way to helping me in winning the ludic fur =) The entry which has the most number of likes wins the prize. You can vote for an entry for only once a day and I'm still four days before the final verdict... We still have time! We can do this! Thanksss so much in advance to everyone who's gonna vote for me! Muah!

i am, i am too fabulous,

-tSin